soundtrack of our love

nobody puts baby in the corner

ill keep my jealousy close,

cause its all mine.

and if you say this makes you happy,

then im not the only one lying

•nobody puts baby in the corner by fall put boy•

i started getting ready for the party sam was throwing at his place. i wasn't much of a partier but, i don't know, there's just something about him. we've been hanging out for months now and I think I like him. I mean obviously I like him, but I think im developing actual feelings. he makes me forget everything that's happening. all the bullshit im going through, i forget when im with him. he makes me happy.

once I arrived at sams i already knew it'd end badly, there were way to many people. I walked into his living room and I just stood there, by myself, looking for sam. I felt a tap on my shoulder. I instantly whipped around because I didn't know if it was some stranger. I had met a few of Sam's friends befor, but not many. when I turned around it was sam and some girl. "jase, glad you came!" he seemed so happy. "i had to, youre my friend, why wouldn't i" the girl was standing there with her arm linked in sams. "sam, aren't you going to introduce us?" the tall blonde said while she batted her brown eyes and fake eyelashes.

"uh right, kayla, this is my best friend jasey. jasey, this is my uh, girlfriend kayla." the blonde spoke up. "wow jasey is such a pretty name" 'shut the fuck up' I thought to myself. "its nice to meet you, sam never mentioned he had a girlfriend.." "yeah we met a year ago. he's just the sweetest." she leaned over and kissed him on the cheek.

I thought I was gonna vomit. it felt as if someone had punched me in the stomach. i felt as if i had been betrayed, and even worse, I just felt hurt.

i ran out of sams living room, and out of his house. i got into my car and slammed the door. "are you fucking kidding me!" I screamed. I slammed my hand into the steering wheel and my eyes began to sting. "no no no no no jasey, you've gone through more shit than anyone you know. he's just a dumb fucking boy with a dumb fucking girlfriend."

Once I got home I ran straight into my apartment, not even locking my car. I went into the bathroom and looked in the miirror. "jasey you're a god damn idiot if you think you had a chance. how can you compare to her?" I can't believe I was talking to myself.

i opened the cabinet and reached for the thing I hated yet longed for most. I grabbed that fucking piece of metal and I dragged it acrossed my left wrist. 'you deserve all of this.' a voice in my head was saying. the voice stopped once I heard a familiar one. "jasey..?"

shit.

a/n: PLOT TWIST AF. how do you guys feel about kayla? and what did you think of the twist of sam having a gf?
(IMPORTANT MESSAGE: I do not in anyway support self harm, I just thought itd be a good twist. NO IM NOT GONNA ROMANTICIZE SELF HARM but if you need someone to all to im here, DM me on Instagram or twitter, or message me here. I'll reply I promise. also, I guarantee I know how you're feeling trust me. please don't hurt yourself. you are worth it. you are loved.