soundtrack of our love

the way she feels.

she closed her eyes

found relief in a knife

with closed eyes she cried.

•the way she feels by between the trees•

so many months clean, and I broke. i was just trying to forget how I'm feeling, but I made it worse. i feel like shit. god dammit i let sam down even more. i don't deserve him, he's too good for me.

i put my hands on the counter in order to pull myself up, the blood going down my arm. i opened the cabinet and grabbed a bottle of ativan. i opened the bottle and emptied it into my hand.

i brought my hand up to mouth and swallowed the pills. my vision began to blur and I fell to the ground.

autumns pov: i needed to check up on jasey, since I haven't talked to her in a few days. Alex and I went to sam and jaseys apartment and the door was unlocked. I searched the most of the apartment and when I found her, my heart dropped to the floor. i screamed for alex to call 911 and the ambulance arrived. they took her to the hospital, and I didn't want to break the news to sam, so Alex did. I don't understand why she'd do this.

sams pov: i never should've left. god dammit I'm worthless. I left the person I love the most and I could lose her. i can't imagine how she feels.

a/n: should I keep writing orrrr???