soundtrack of our love

baby dont cut.

i know your heart is hurting,

you think the road has end

you may just feel that blade youre holding

is your only friend

but baby dont cut

baby don't cut

you can do anything

just promise baby you won't cut.

•baby dont cut by b-mike•

"jasey..?" in that moment i dropped my blade right into the toilet, and i, myself, dropped to the bathroom floor. i was crying so hard i couldn't breath. I felt two arms wrap around me. i stayed in sams arms, but turned so my face was buried in his chest. we stayed like this for a while, while I sobbed. sam broke the silence (minus my crying).

"jasey, listen to me. i know how youre feeling. you feel like the blade was the only person here for you, and maybe a couple months ago it was, but i am here, and I will never leave you. now look at me." i lifted my head even though I was dreading seeing the disgust and disappointment in his eyes, suprisingly, his eyes seemed sincere and apologetic.

"you are beautiful. you are amazing. you are funny and sweet. and you're the best god damn friend ive had. now do you have anymore blades." I nodded my head. "give me them." he sounded so demanding.

i stood up and opened the drawer. I grabbed the two i had left and handed them to him. he threw one in the toilet and held the other. he brought the blade to his wrist so quickly I couldn't stop him. red lines began forming and all I remember was crying an extensive amount and sam threw the last one in the toilet, turned to me and pressed his lips against mine.

when we separated he spoke up. "every time you hurt yourself, so will i, because when you inflict pain upon yourself, it hurts those who care about you. so hurting you hurts me. please, never cut. i can't lose you."

he leaned down and kissed me once more before saying he had to leave, he had something to do. that was the night i realized, i think i love samuel cain.

a/n: sorry is this is short, its late but I had a thought for this chapter and I didn't want to remember it. i really hope you liked it, if not its cool I guess. anyway, message me if you're struggling with something or even if you just want to talk, I'm always here.
thanks for reading cx