haven't seen your face in ages
it feels like were as close as strangers.
•close as strangers by 5sos•
i pushed my way into the bar, yeah I should've learned my lesson with alcohol but, tonight im drinking away the fucking pain. I scanned the bar for autumn, but my eyes met a familiar green pair. sam.
he shoved himself towards me. "j-jasey." "hi." my throat felt as if there were a lump in it. "how have you been?" "okay" I lied. I couldn't tell him how I felt, he'd think im clingy. "can we go on a walk? please, I need to talk to you." here it was, he was gonna tell me how weird I am. "uh, sure."
we were walking down the street in silence, until sam spoke up. "why?" "why what?" "why'd you break up with me? was I not good enough for you? did you not love me? why?" "sam, that's the thing, I was never good enough for you. you were this amazing guy, that'd do anything for me. im this girl that ripped my skin apart at the thought of loving you. i couldn't give you what you could give me. im broken and scarred. you're just broken." "god dammit jasey! let me be your fucking neosporan. I need you, I can't think without you. you're my fucking world. and you are this phenomenal person that was torn apart by herself, but please, let me fix you." he began to roll up his sleeves. "jase, when you swallowed those pills, i did this. I told you when you hurt yourself its hurting me. i can't keep living without you." his arms were covered in scars. they went in different directions, some had been deeper than others.
"jasey, your smile is the most beautiful thing. i feel alive when im with you. at night, I can't sleep because my mind is filled with so many thoughts of you, and all I want is to sleep with you next to me. every time I feel like that moment is close to me, you rip it out of reach. i spend all of my time thinking about the time we spent together. almost a year ago we met, and I don't want us to only spend one year together, im selfish, and I want you for an eternity. so stay with me please. move back in, I still have the rings, come to california with me next week, we can get married in Vegas, no one but us. please. I love you."
i didn't even hesitate to say yes.
a/n: sam is love, sam is life. thoughts? comments?
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Teen Fictionshe spent her whole life trying to figure out what was wrong with her; he'd be the one to change that.
