soundtrack of our love

asylum.

someone medicate this cancer

we need to find an answer

before we find that its too late.

•asylum by 7mih•

i had to go to the doctors to make sure I was alright. sam flew to california last week, but is coming back for the last time, before we move, to california. we decided to wait on getting married, just a month.

"jasey you seem to be recovering well. we do however, want to do a test for brain cancer, since several members of your family have had it. you don't need to be worried though." my mother and sister passed from cancer. my dad wasn't around at all, so my brother and I moved in with my uncle.

"we have one concern, we went ahead and looked for tumors in other places, just to be safe, and we found a small mass on your leg. it'd be an easy removal. a small, low risk surgery. if you are okay with it, we could send you into surgery tomorrow morning." i always thought I'd die of different things, I never thought I'd have cancer. most people would be terrified but the doctor said it was small and an easy removal. "ill have the surgery."

once I got home, I had to tell sam. but I had more than one thing to tell him. autumn never told him about the cuts on my arm when i tried to kill myself. I also did a good job with hiding them. but I had to come clean.

"hey babe, how was the doctors?" sam asked after missing my forehead. "it was okay. they said I was recovering well, but they found a small tumor on my leg and they're removing it tomorrow. its low risk, don't worry. also, when I, uhm, attempted, I relapsed. im sorry. I know it hurts you and the last thing I wanted to do was hurt someone who loves m-" sam cut me off by pressing his lips to mine. we made our way into our room with our lips still locked.

i pushed him onto our bed and started taking off his shirt. i pulled it over his head, and i noticed the other tattoos he had. remarkable. a word that could describe every aspect of sam. "sam, this isn't something I do often, in fact, something ive, uh, never done." i felt my cheeks heat up. i leaned up only to pulled back to sam. he flipped me onto my back so he was over top of me and he began to plant kisses on my neck. i let out three words "i love you" sam stopped to look me in the eyes. "baby, are you sure you're ready, its up to you." i lifted my head up to his and kissed him passionately. "yes." and we continued.

as I said, remarkable.

a/n: I DONT WRITE SMUT SO I TRIED TO MAKE IT AS SIMPLE AS POSSIBLE. PLUS SEX IS DIRTY. LITERALLY. BUT YEAH, HERES MY SHITTY SEX WRITING. SO SO SO SO SORRY. I LOVE YOU.