soundtrack of our love

same mistakes.

or else we'll play play play

all the same old games

and we wait wait wait

for the end to change

and we take take take

if for granted that will be the same

but we're making all the same mistakes.

•same mistakes by one direction •

I could hear the sirens a few blocks away. "jasey you'll be perfectly fine. it was just a fall." "sam, I'm not worried about me. im worried about our fucking baby." i could see the tears in his eyes. I've known him for over a year and I've seen him cry once maybe twice before.

"jasey since you're only about a month pregnant you should be concerned. it may seem like everything should be fine but there are a few possibilities." and with that the doctor began the tests to see if the baby was okay.

×××

the doctor walked into the room. "sam, jasey. im so sorry. its very rare that the fetus survives when the mother falls. and this time wasn't any different." I felt my cheeks heat up. I couldn't control the tears pouring down my face.

the car ride home was silent. there wasn't anything to say. sam lit a cigarette. we were at a red light.

"sam, are we ever going to get married. you tell me over and over again that we are but we keep pushing it back." "jasey is now really a good time. our fucking baby is dead, and youre worried about marriage. I swear for the past few months all you've done is push me about marrying you. I love you but I don't want to move this fast." "then why would you propose?" "so you wouldn't leave me.." "guess what, too late." I opened the door and got out of his car. he didn't even hesitate to drive off. I started walking back to the apartment.

a/n: oh hey, im back. go read my story type thing called "poetry for the sad and lonely" (I think that's it, oops)

I got a ticket to otra for august so yay.
also saywecanfly is going to warped which makes me happy.

on the 3rd i was with the resolution which was pretty cool. oh btw I have a fan account @mukeslovechild it was a 5sos fan account now its for bands. my personal is @all.time.tori and my twitter is @torihealyy

how have you been? my past few days have been complete shit but who cares. have fun with my shitty update.