Blackmailed Into The Band

Crying Isn't Very Punk Rock of You

I turned around, feeling embarrassed and angry. The last thing I saw was Aidan, looking just as mad before I ran past Josh and the redhead. He called after me, asking me to wait.

I ran into my car, crying and wondering if it was safe to drive. How could he do this to me? Literally after recording a fucking song together.

I pulled out of the driveway, ignoring Josh calling my name with tears running down his face.

My parents weren't home but Gerard and Hayley were. I'm pretty sure I had some chocolate ice cream in the freezer too.

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Aidan's POV

" Josh! Stop," We heard Phillip yell. Alexia was already there, covering her mouth with her hands at the sight of her boyfriend kissing the girl with red hair.

She turned towards me and Carter with her eyes watering. She was heartbroken.

She looked a lot like me when my last girlfriend cheated on me. I sighed as I remember how painful it was when Katie, the girl I loved for three years, crushed my heart. I had to stay at home for so many days and hypocrite Josh was the one who spent all those nights with me. He came to the fucking rescue, staying with me in the same bed as I cried and ran to the bathroom to throw up. He was there to see me at my lowest. And now he just did the same fucking thing Katie did to me.

I watched Alexia's face fall and her eyes meet mine before she dashed off like a doe running towards her car.

Josh had the audacity to call after her. As she slammed the accelerator and drove away, I found myself going after her. I pushed Josh out of the way but not before reminding him of those nights.

" -I hope you're proud of yourself," I yelled.

" Where are you going?" He asked, holding his sister.

" After Alexia. Because who knows what she'll do to herself after you fucked up," I shouted, running towards my car and driving after her.

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Alexia's POV

" I'm home," I yelled at the empty house.

I locked the door and threw myself on the couch. Gerard meowed, sensing my sadness and coming to the rescue.

" He kissed the fucking redhead," I cried as Hayley joined us. She curled up on my side, as if to say I feel ya. Tell me more.

So I started talking to the cats, feeling as low as one could, calling Josh every name I knew and making up more as I went.

There was a knock on the door and I screamed, promising to beat Josh up for having the guts to come after me. I threw the door open, hitting Aidan in the face.

" Ow," He covered his nose and closed his eyes.

" What do you want?" I asked, feeling less hateful after hurting someone.

" Wow this is not what I expected, fuck... you broke my nose," He frowned. " Can I use your bathroom?"

My face fell as I let him in and took him to the bathroom where he checked his nose. It wasn't even bleeding.

" What do you want?" I asked again.

" Someone had to make sure you'd be okay," He said.

I stared at him blankly.

" I don't know why I fucking came here," He sighed. " All I need is reassurance that you'll be okay, you won't think about hurting yourself, you can vent and yell at me, I'm here for you," He said, meeting my eyes.

" Sounds like someone's been through the same thing," I said.

He clenched his fists.

I looked at him, feeling bad for my sarcastic comment. " I didn't mean... I'm sorry, Aidan."

" It's okay," He said.

" No-" I started crying, feeling bad that Emo Anger Issues has been through the same thing before and maybe that's why he had anger problems.

" You'll be okay," He said, coming closer and hugging me.

I hugged him back, feeling thankful that he was here holding me up.

" I wonder why he did it," I said, wiping my nose.

" Because that's how Josh works. He's like a puppy, following people that give him attention and make him happy. I wonder if he liked you or the idea of how much attention you gave him... I wondered the same thing with Katie," He said flatly.

" Katie's a rat for leaving you," I cried.

" Josh is a fucking idiot for leaving such a-" He trailed off.

" Such a what?" I asked, wiping my nose.

" Nothing. Are you going to be okay?" He asked, keeping his hands around my waist.

" No," I said as new tears formed in my eyes.

He pulled me into another reluctant hug and I had a feeling he was getting the same effect from this, the same reassurance that someone else understood.

" I thought you hated me," I said after a while, wiping my eyes and nose.

He sighed, running his hand through his hair. " 'Lexia I hate every girl," He said.

" Because of Katie?"

" Yes. I don't want to talk about her. Don't say her name."

" Still affects you?" I asked.

" She meant the world to me for three years. I spent all my money on her, threw away so many friendships just to make time for her. I lost my damned virginity to her and she left. Fuck, I missed three weeks of school because I was hurting so bad, and Josh spent every night with me, sleeping with me in the same bed with me because I couldn't stop crying-" He started crying.

Emo Anger Issues, the guy who slammed my locker and threatened me so many times, started shaking in my arms as Hayley and Gerard watched from the doorway.

" And no one ever realized how I felt," He said, wiping his eyes. " Except for fucking Josh who was the only one there for me, and look what he did to you..."

" Hey, it's okay," I said, awkwardly. I reached out to hug him, happy when he accepted my hug and we both stayed together, crying for at least ten more minutes.

Our tears turned to inspiration. We went to the basement and I showed him my little studio. We messed around, screaming our feelings into the mic and saying things that only we understood. At some point, we recorded our dumb phrases and came up with a pretty decent song. Aidan came up with the last line.

...Explain why you left, and tell me why it was for the better.

We played our song back, listening to our angry feelings.

A car pulled into the driveway a while later and I frowned because Carter was home.

" I guess I should go," Aidan said.

As we walked towards the door, I felt uncomfortable.

" If you need anything, don't hesitate to call me," He said, giving me one last hug.

Carter opened the front door as Aidan and I jumped away from each other.

" Is something going on?" He asked with his million dollar smirk.

" No. Alexia's stupid," Aidan said, rolling his eyes.

I thought about punching him but I heard what he told Carter before leaving.

" Please take care of her, Carter."