Happiness (Ciel X Lizzy) SEQUEL UP NOW

"Doubts and Fear."

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~HANTAI'S P.O.V.~

After a few glasses of wine, Elizabeth was giggling happily at the table. I was on my third glass along with Elizabeth. Luckily I had a high tolerance for alcohol.

I paid for the meal then we made our way out. Elizabeth was seemingly drunk somewhat, not hammered but enough to make her extra giggly and happy.

Once out we walked down the busy and beautiful streets of London. At first glance we probably seemed like a couple, but Elizabeth thought of me as just a friend. I on the other hand was devolving feelings for her, despite the fact that I shouldn't have for more reasons than I could count.

One. She was engaged. Two. She seemed to love her fiancé. Three. Her fiancé owns the competing toy company. Four. I hardly know her. Five. The feelings aren't mutual.

Huh, looks like I can count them...But still, there are so many reasons why I shouldn't feel this way. I honestly hate myself for this. Yes, I hate her betrothed but I am still a man, I still believe in respect-- If I were to go after her I wouldn't dare to call myself a man. It's not like she want me anyways...

I just can't help myself, I couldn't find a single flaw in her even if I tried. Corny, but true.

I lead her into a small yet cozy cafe, ordering two cups of coffee and a plate of cookies upon arrival.

I needed her to sober up, I don't want her to go home even the slightest bit of drunk. Plus, if her parents saw her this way I'd never even be able to look at her again.

She gave me a warm and hazy smile once we were seated, happily playing with a salt shaker from the table. "So pretty..." Lizzy mumbled.

I fixated my gaze on her, admiring her. I couldn't help but to think she was graceful, even now when she's fiddling with a salt shaker.

She met my gaze a moment later, setting the object down. Elizabeth smiled lightly once again at me.

I returned the smile instantly, though my focus on her was broken soon when the waiter came with our two coffees. He set them down, smiled and winked in Elizabeth's direction then walked away.

She didn't seem phased by the smile and wink. She only took a sip of her coffee then munched on a cookie. It was either she was used to these gestures or she was too drunk to care. Perhaps it was a bit of both. Either way, it bothered me.

After finishing up our coffees, we paid then left. She seemed fine now, much better than before obviously.

By the time we left the cafe, the town was already illuminated in lights, the streets filled with people. We walked to any and every shop that seemed even the least bit of interesting.

Elizabeth purchased a handful of stuffed animals, sweets, perfumes, and even a few porcelain dolls. I on the other hand bought only a few pieces of assorted candies, I've always had a sweet tooth.

In the end, the night was fun. I must say I enjoyed it to say the least. It felt nice, spending time with her. She was only of my few female friends but only she had a real effect on me.

We soon came to a stop at a nearby park, sitting down on a bench. "We should both be on our way before it's any later. Do you have a carriage nearby? If not I do, I can take you home if you'd like?"

"I do, thank you for the offer though. My driver couldn't have gone far," She answered, gathering her bags as she stood. "I suppose I'll see you soon then?"

I nodded a single time, following her action by standing up. "Very well then, take care."

Lizzy smiled kindly as usual, causing a smile to form on my lips instantly. "Goodnight, Hantai."

"Goodnight, Lizzy." I wanted to kiss her, so, so much. But I respect her and I respect the fact that she's taken even if I don't like it...

People like me don't get happy endings. Though I'll try my best to make her mine, I'll do it the right way. No cheap tricks.

She gave me one last smiled then we parted, heading our separate ways.

~ELIZABETH'S P.O.V.~

I sighed, staring at the letter in my hands. I smiled faintly, taking another moment to stare at it. Ciel had finally written to me. He was fine, he wasn't hurt.

Dear Lizzy,

I'm deeply sorry for not contacting you for so long. I've been terribly busy, I'm sorry. I'll explain everything on our next meeting, I hope to see you soon. We have much to discuss. Could you come over today in the evening? If so don't reply, just meet me at my estate. For now, farewell, my love.

-Yours truly, Ciel Phantomhive.

I smiled faintly at the letter. I miss him like crazy, I can't stand to be apart from him. I hate how my thoughts sound like they belong in a romance novel.

I love him and I know we haven't been the best of couples but I'd like to make sure our relationship is strong. I'd already given myself to him, emotionally, physically, and any other way possible. I was his and he was mine but our relationship was new, old, weak, and strong all at the same time. I couldn't let go of him, not now, not ever even if I tried.

I love Ciel and I miss him, but my insecurities are starting to get to me. What if he doesn't love me anymore?-- What if he never did? What if he's found someone else? What if the reason he's meeting with me is to break off the engagement? What if he's leaving me?

If he were to leave me I don't know what I'd do. I wouldn't go on a rampage or anything of the sort I would just be broken. I would be broken and lost without him. But just the fact that I had thoughts like these proved my doubt for this relationship.-No, doubt was the wrong word to use. Fear. I am afraid of losing him, I always have been.

But I won't allow it, I'll try my best to keep him happy. I'll do my best to keep our relationship strong because I know that if two people love each other they find a way to be together no matter what. And as far as I'm concerned, there's nothing standing in the way between my true love and I.

My thoughts may be contradicting, but they're true. I may be insecure but I'm lovesick and I won't let go.

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Sorry for the short chapter, I'm really just testing out Hantai's P.O.V. He's going to be playing a big part in this relationship. He might ruin and possibly take Ciel's life.