Happiness (Ciel X Lizzy) SEQUEL UP NOW

"Problems"

Well, I'm updating twice today! As always thanks for reading and leave your thoughts and suggestions in the comments below. I felt that Elizabeth is feeling in this mood, the mood that fits Drown. I couldn't find the original by BMTH on here so here's a cover. Check out Bring Me The Horizon and this wonderful singer as well.

Enough boring details, enjoy!

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LIZZY'S P.O.V.

I kissed Hantai on the cheek then left his manor. I'm scared once again. I came to see a friend for comfort and to escape boy drama and I left with even more boy drama and confusing feelings. Once again I found myself thinking, what have I gotten myself into?

With a sigh I walked into a small shop. I bought some comfort food then I headed home. I needed some alone time to think about this, all of this. I needed to think about Ciel, and kissing Hantai, and my own feelings.

I'm a teenage girl with stupid problems. I hate all of this but I know I have to figure all of this out. I can't just run away from my problems. Right?

Ugh.

Once I was home, I retreated into my room. I plopped down on my bed after kicking off my shoes. Okay. Thinking time.

Hantai kissed me, and I kissed back. As much as I hate to admit it, the kiss was wonderful. When his lips pressed against mine I wasn't thinking at first, his lips were so soft and even though his kiss was gentle, there was heat and passion. After I got over the surprise, I had a brief second to think. Hantai was nice and he'd always been kind to me. Kissing him felt wrong but right at the same time.

Kissing Hantai is nice and so is kissing Ciel. It's nice with both of them but in there own different way. But to be honest I regretted kissing Hantai. I'm engaged, I'm with Ciel. To be honest I,m not sure if I want to be either one of them. This is all happening too fast.

I don't know what to do... I don't want to lose either one of them from my life but I'm not sure how I feel about everything that's going on. How am I supposed to respond to all of this?

I mean, Hantai has a point. Ciel and I.... There are so much problems there. But there's also a past, a history with him. Ciel was my first time, and I've been with him for so long. But Hantai, he's so kind and he knows how to treat me right. But the truth is it's not about choosing. I don't know if I'm ready for this, either one of them.

Gosh.. I don't want this, the drama, the heartbreak. I'm only eighteen and so much is wrong already.

I wish I could just escape...