Happiness (Ciel X Lizzy) SEQUEL UP NOW

"Just Friends"

Hiiiii, as promised, here's another update. As always, leave your thoughts and suggestions in the comments below. The story might go on longer than I thought, so, yeah. n.n

Enjoy!

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LIZZY'S P.O.V.

Seeing Ciel made me happy, sad, and angry all at the same time. He had hurt me, hurt me in so many ways. When I saw him I wanted to cry and have him hold me. When he told me he loved me, I had fought my urge to cry. I want him back. I miss him. I still want to marry him, still want to be by his side.

Why did he have to do this? Why did he have to cheat on me? Why do I still love him after all of this? Why? Why did it hurt when I saw that old cold expression on his face? That emotionless expression I hadn't seen since before we said "I love you," to one another. Why did it hurt when he called me Elizabeth? Why was I still hurt?

I held his bouquet of roses in my hand and I rushed upstairs. I sat on my bed and lost myself in my thoughts once again.

Being friends with him is going to be difficult. When he moves on, when he finds someone else, I won't know what to do. When he proposes to someone else, when he marries someone else, I will get my heart broken all over again.

No, I have to think clearly. He hurt me. He cheated. He has made me cry countless of times. I can't be with him, he will only let me down.

TIME SKIP- ONE MONTH LATER

LIZZY'S P.O.V.

It was the first time Ciel and I were going to see one another since that time at my Manor. We were meeting at his place for tea. I have to do this. We have to try to be friends. This is better than cutting him out forever.

Once I was there, I knocked on the door softly. Truth be told, I'm scared. I don't know how to be "just friends," with the man I have loved for the longest of time. I'd slept with him. I had given him everything...

Ciel opened the door. "Hi, Ciel," I greeted him with a small smile. He didn't return the smile.

"Good afternoon, Lady Elizabeth," I hated hearing that from his lips but I said nothing. He lead me inside then into the lounging area.

Sebastian entered with our tea then left. I slowly took a sip, unsure of what to do.

Ciel and I then began to talk, chatting away for hours. Soon we were on the floor am front of the fire place. "Tell me about yourself.." He said softly, looking over at me.

"What do you mean? You know everything about me.." I answered sipping my new cup of tea.

"No, I mean your hopes, dreams, fears,"

I nodded then took a moment to think. "Hmm.. My hopes, I only hope to find happiness. My dreams, I dream of seeing the world, being free. And my fears?.. I'm afraid of marrying the wrong person. I am afraid of being on the wrong path. I'm afraid of so many things. Spiders, bugs in general." I laughed lightly. "What about you?"

He smiled for the first time today. "I have none of those. No hopes, no dreams, no fears. They are all gone. My only fear was losing you, and look how that turned out..." Awkward.

I frowned and looked at him. He met my gaze, and held it for quite some time. We both leaned in at what I think was the same time. We kissed, our lips pressing against one another.

I shut my eyes, and he cupped my cheek with one of his hands. We soon were holding one another close, kissing for what seemed like forever. I missed this. I missed kissing him. I missed holding him.

No. What was I thinking?! He is the one who messed things up!

But I know this is wrong. I slowly broke the kiss, looking up at him. "We can't," I said softly, frowning slightly.

"I know, I know," He then pulled away completely.

We sat there for a long while, before I noticed it was getting late and headed home. I am afraid again, afraid of failing in love with him again.

-ONE MONTH LATER-

Ciel and I had began to meet at a café every morning for tea. It was like I was getting to know him again. He still didn't smile or call me Lizzy, it hurt a bit but I was okay with it. Meeting him in public made it easier to not give into my feelings for him.

At this point I am aware that it will take a long time to get over him, if I ever get over him. I still love him, and I am sure I always will.. But that doesn't matter. I deserve to be happy.

We were having dinner tonight together at his place. I am currently at home, happily chatting with my friend Rachel.

She raised an eye brow at me. "Lizzy, don't let yourself fall for him again." I looked over at her, she was right but I still love him. I never stopped. So I don't have to fall for him again.

"I won't.." I lied with a smile. "I'll be careful.. I won't do anything I'll regret." She looked skeptical but she nodded. "Alright."