better off without you

18

it's been a while since the guys had shown up we've just been chilling in the living room.
i was sat between owen and shane mostly tuning out there conversations. 

sara had come over with her friend and sat in chairs across from us
"i'm lisa" she smiles looking at me
"alana" i return the smile

sara's eyes had traveled to cole
she had told me previously she thought he was cute but would never go for him i wasn't sure if she knew about madi and coles little thing they had going on

i had taken out my phone out and scrolled through social media for a while
"alana" jack calls out walking into the living room
"yeah" i ask
"will you build the lego set with me" he asks
"i thought owen was going to"
"we can do it now" owen says

he sits up and jack runs off to grab his lego set
"ok bob the builder" cole jokes
owen throws a pillow at him and the rest of us laugh
jack quickly comes back with both lego sets in his hands
"which one" jack asks owen
"we can do both"

shane and mark had managed to switch seats so when i turned i was faced with mark
"oh hey"
"hey" i could clearly smell the alcohol on his breath
i give him a smile but felt owens eyes burning holes in the back of my head
"i'm gonna grab a drink" mark says as he stand up and walks away
i turn around to find owen death staring me
"stop" i quietly whisper
he mumbles something but i didn't catch it
i roll my eyes at his mood

soon enough mark comes back with two drinks and hands one to me
i didn't know what was in it but he wouldn't try to drug me while with a group of people i had hoped
"vodka seltzer" he tells me as if he knew what i was thinking
i nod and start to sip from the cup

i look over and see owen and jack building the lego set together i smile seeing them both happy
"hey sar wheres ellie"
"with aunt georgia"  she smiles and i nod

"so you're pretty close with the family huh" mark asks
"i guess, i mean i've been here a few times so they all know me"
"got it, hey what are you doing later" he asks
"nothing i can think of"  i tell him
"alright" he smirks

i watch as everyone around me has conversations with there loved ones and friends

owens fingers brush my inner thigh sending chills through my whole body
when my eyes meet his lips they are curved into a smirk indicating it was on purpose
so returned the gesture by resting my hand on his knee causing his body to tense

he clears his throat and gives his full attention to jack
i smirk and watch as they continue to build the lego set

after a while it was getting late most of owens family was gone
"i'm gonna head home" i tell owen
"i drove you here how are you gonna get home"
"i can uber or have one of the guys take me home"
"no i can drive you" he says
"it's ok, i'll uber"
"are you sure"
"stay with your family"
"text me when you're home" he says
"yeah i will"
i say bye to his family and head out the door

as i was about to pull out my phone to order the uber a voice stops me
"you need a ride?" mark asks
"oh uh only if you-"
"it's no problem"
i smile and go in his car with him

"it's not too late yet we can chill at my house" he says
i was unsure but i did trust him i mean he was a friend of owens so i didn't see much of a problem
"yeah i probably can for a little" i tell him

i've never been to this part of town but we finally reached his house, it had to be at least 15 or 20 minutes away from mine

his house looks about the size of mine
"no one is home so we have the whole place"
"ok" i was hesitant about really going into his house alone with him it didn't feel right

his house had a modern theme and it was really pretty
"anything you want to drink?" he asks
"whatever you're having"
he nods and heads to the other room

a few minutes later he comes back with two glasses, one with i'm assuming vodka seltzer for me and bourbon for him
"i didn't take you as a bourbon type of girl"
"you're correct"

⚠️tw rape⚠️

we sit on the couch and talk for a while, after two drinks i had stated to feel more lightheaded i'm sure it was just from drinking earlier
"you alright" he asks
"yeah i just feel a little dizzy"
"there's a bed upstairs if you wanna lay down"

by now my vision was blurry and i couldn't sit still
"no i think i should just go home"
i stand up at the same time he does and collapse in his arms
"you're alright, i'm just gonna take you upstairs"
he has full control over me

my heart was racing as he carried my lifeless body up the stairs
"i want to go home" i tell him
"you're ok here" he assures me
we get to a room and he lays me on the bed
i feel as if i can't move
"take me home, please mark" i beg
"you're ok here" he repeated
i felt his body on top of mine and soon enough his lips were pressed to my neck
"stop" i whisper
his hands explore my body, every inch of it. i close my eyes and try to push him off of me but i'm to weak at this point.

"please mark" i cry
he unzips the dress i had on and slides it off of me leaving me in my underwear and a white long sleeve
"i don't want this" i tell him, "just take me home mark" i beg
he pulls my underwear down giving himself full access to my body
his fingers brushed over my clit before circling it with his thumb while kissing my neck. i couldn't do anything, i could barley move my arms.

a moan escapes my mouth and it was the last thing i wanted i knew that would satisfy him
"please stop" i beg
before i knew it he had shoved himself inside of me
both his hands were resting on my hips as he pounded in and out of me
he lips come close to my ear

"if you tell anyone about this alana, i swear to god i'll make your life a living hell" he says

i try pushing him away from me again but it's no use, my attempt at using my voice gets shut down quickly after his hand slams over my lips. i was helpless, useless and a total wreck.
i don't know what he put in my drink but it was strong weather it was ecstasy or just a lot of alcohol i knew i couldn't stop him