better off without you

14

knowing we had to wake up early, 5:45 to be exact i wanted to get as much sleep as possible. you may have noticed i like my sleep, who doesn't. as for owen, he barely sleeps which causes him to get bored and try's to keep me up. it was 9:45 and we were all back in our hotel room by now and i was laying with owen scrolling through my phone.

"let's go to the pool" he whispers
"what? no" i giggle a little
"come on it will be fun"
"the pool closed at 8"
"since when do you follow rules" he asks
"well i don't want to get screamed at"
"we'll be quiet"
it did sound like fun but i don't want to risk getting yelled at and we need to wake up early
"we need sleep"
"20 minutes at the pool"
"getting into bathing suits will be loud"
"so only wear a shirt"
"there's security cameras"
"not by the pool, and if we're questioned then we'll say you needed advil or water or something"
i sigh knowing he had come up with a solution to all the problems i named and they would probably work
"fine"
he grins and quietly gets up

i look over to see conner and shane sleeping peacefully
"if we get caught it's on you"  i whisper
"fine with me"
he hands me shirt of his and i replace my sweatshirt with it and slip on spandex shorts

once we're both ready he leads us out of the room and we start our quiet walk to the pool careful to dodge any hotel staff
"this is so stupid" i whisper
"it will be fun"

when we get to the pool the gate is locked
"good planning ahead" i say sarcastically
"easy"
he climbs up and over the fence
i follow him but go a little slower as i don't want to fall

he takes his shirt and placed it on the chair off leaving him in shorts

he looks about ready to jump in before i stop him
"use the stairs dumbass it will be quieter" i remind him
"right"
i laugh a little and he walks over to the stairs that go into the pool as i wait behind sitting on the edge with my feet in.

"are you coming in" he asks
"i don't wanna get my hair wet"
"then why did you come"
"if i said no you would have forced me anyway"
he smirks
"this isn't very fun" i sigh
"well if you would get in"
he places his hands on my hips pulling me forward causing me to end up chest deep in water
"owen" i whisper yell
thank god my hair is up in a bun or i would have killed him

i hold onto his forearms and remain on my tippy toes to stay higher above water
"see this isn't so bad"
"no it's pretty bad"
he cracks a smile and lowers his arms
"stop" i laugh trying to keep my neck above water
"it's not my fault you're the shortest person to exist"
"that's just not true"
"mhm"
i back up and pull myself up in the edge of the pool where i was moments ago

he comes closer and rest his hands on my thighs while standing between my legs
"we should head back soon"
"nah we're ok"
"we're gonna get caught"
"no we won't"
"you don't know that"
"i do"
"i will be so mad at you if we get in trouble"
"i should have asked lexi to come instead she would complain to much"

that's was annoying.
i gasp and push him away from me
"i'm kidding" he says laughing
"not funny"
"jealous"
"nope, maybe you should invite her seeing as i'm leaving in a few minutes"
"no you're not"

he yet again pulls me into the pool this time keeping a tighter grip on me so i can't escape
"it's cold and i want to go back"
"not yet"
our bodies were pressed together and our faces were inches apart.
his hand slides down my back and under the water.
i hated how weak his touch made me.
"owen" i say quietly
his eyes flicker from my lips to my eyes before my hand reaches for his face and my thumb lightly rubs along his cheeks.

i hated how much i wanted him to kiss me.
i hated how he made me feel.
but most of all i hate that he is emotionless.
i cant read him like i do my other friends.
he's the most difficult person but that's what i liked about him.

his eyes flicker once more to my lips before leaning in.
once his lips press on mine, i am somewhere else.
his hands go under the big shirt i was wearing and rest on my hips while mine run through his hair.
i didn't know if this was an in the 'moment thing' because it was just the two of us or not but it feels so real.

i pull away knowing this is wrong.
"what are we doing" i ask slowly getting out of his grip
"i- i don't know you just seemed like you wanted to" he says
"because i thought you wanted to"
"we should go back" i say trying to hold back my laughter
"yeah"

"probably should have brought towels" i say as we reach our door
"that would have been smarter"

we quietly make our way into the hotel room and both of us head to the bathroom
"are you showering" he asks
"not while they're sleeping, i don't wanna wake them up"
"i guess"
i grab a sweatshirt from my bag and quickly change into and out of my wet shorts and shirt then i lay in bed scrolling through social media on my phone

"night alana" owen says laying down
"night owen"