better off without you

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we had now been doing the baby project for two weeks, it was mid may meaning we had a month and a half of school left. owen had proposed while we were out to dinner with the group, people around us had believed it which was hilarious to all of us.

flash back

we had finished eating and were now getting dessert, owen had run to the back to talk to one of the workers i had assumed he knew him.
when the dessert came out one of them had candle sparklers in it white the words 'will you marry me' written in a circle around the plate

before i knew it owen had grabbed my hand and pulled me out from the table and went down on one knee
"alana wright, the love of my life. i can't imagine my life without you and your happy personality i want to spend the rest of my life with you, will you marry me"
"yes"
i pull his face up to meet mine and connect our lips while cheers erupt around us

i break the kiss and we both sit back down
"you're a dork" i tell him
"i thought it was pretty cute" he says
"it was embarrassing"
"and it's all on video" madi smiles

end of clash back

"it's your turn to change the baby" i mumble into his neck once i hear the stupid doll start crying
"i change you feed" he says
"how about you do both"
it was Saturday morning, seven thirty in the morning all we were trying to do is sleep.
"fine"
i mean being around babies wasn't hard for us considering we had younger siblings but parents would typically take care of them early in the morning.

he gets up and brings the doll back to my room
"no don't bring it in here it's so loud" i groan
he hands me the doll while he gets everything ready. the urge i had to suffocate this thing.

"can we talk" i ask once he places the baby down on a chair and lays back down with me
"you know, i don't really like when that's how we start conversations" he says kissing the side of my head
"nothing bad"
"alright what's up"
"have you thought about college?" i ask
"ive already gotten accepted into a few but i haven't made a decision" he says

i quickly sit up and look at him
"holy shit what"
"it's not a big deal"
"where?"
"columbia and NYU"
"babe what that's amazing why didn't you tell me"
"i don't even know if i'm gonna go to college"
"you're crazy"
"i have other stuff i can do and make it further than if i was to go to college"
"like what" i ask
"just stuff"
i chose not to push on the topic even though i was curious as to where he would go after highschool, what would happen to us?

"and how about you" he asks
"i got into brown and princeton"
"that's my girl, why didn't you tell me"
"i didn't wanna say i got accepted anywhere if you hadn't heard back yet"
"well i'm proud of you" he says as he kisses the top of my head
there was no denying the two of us were both smart people, considering we had both gotten into IVY league schools. i was beyond proud of him, i mean how could i not be.

"i mean if you do go to college at least we'll both be on the east coast"
"i know baby, i just don't think i'm going to end up going" he says
"and it's completely up to you i just don't want you to miss out on an IVY league opportunity"
"i'll think about it, i promise"
"okay"
thought i had gotten into an ivy league, i don't know if that's something i want to pursue. i had always thought about modeling but never took any of the steps to get there.

we lay in silence for a while he plays with the rings on my fingers while i think about anything and everything, overthinking happened to be one of my few talents.

"babe"
"yeah" i ask
"i'm ready"
"you're gonna need to elaborate"
he moves us so i was on top of him
"i'm ready for us"
"are you sure"
"i want us"
"are you asking me to be your girlfriend at eight in the morning"
"depends if you say yes"
"of course i say yes you idiot"
i quickly peck his lips
"i need to shower"
i move off of him and he smirks

the rest of the day was filled with unholy activities, movies and snacks.