better off without you

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luke
january 3rd 2021 3:30pm

you
hey:) it's alana
you can come over whenever

luke
hey, leaving now

i change into sweatpants and a tank top before running downstairs heating a knock on the door
"hey come in" i say
"hi" he smiles
"luke's here, we'll be upstairs" i yell out to mom

the two of us get up to my room and quickly get started on the homework due friday and finish after a while leaving us just talking
"so you're sitting with lexi huh?" he laughs
"yeah, she's not as mean as i thought she was"
"after her and owen stopped seeing eachother she like changed a lot"
"good for her i guess" i shrug
"so now you're owens girl?" he asks
"no we're just friends"
"so he won't kill me if i do this..."
he leans in and connects his lips to mine before i quickly pull away

"um i'm sure he won't mind but i do"
"i mean you two aren't together so what's the problem"
"you, you're the problem. and you should probably leave"
"i'll see you at school tomorrow" he sighs and leaves my room

i pull out my phone to text madi and tell her what just happened it went something like
"MADS HE KISSED ME WHAT THE FUCK"
i soon realize it didn't go to madi when i got a text back

owen
tuesday january 3rd 5:17 pm

you
MADS HE KISSED ME
WHAT THE FUCK

owen
uh i'm not madi but
luke? i'll fucking kill him

you
oh fuck. come over
before you do
anything please

owen
i'm already omw

honestly it's my luck it would go to owen and not madi, i'm sure madi would have told cole and cole would have told owen so he eventually would have found out but i knew this would be his reaction

"honey, owens here!" mom calls from the hall
a few seconds later my door swings open revealing an angry owen
"did he do anything else" he asks
"no and you weren't even supposed to find out that text was supposed to go to madi"
"well i did find out and i'm going to kill him alana"
"it was a kiss it's not a big deal"
"did you kiss him back"
"no i pushed him away, dumbass"
he groans in frustration
"you need to relax" i tell him

i pull his hand so he lays down with me
"i was okay, he stopped when i pulled away and nothing else happened i don't know why you care so much i really don't but i'm okay"
"i care because i care about you alana"
"alright we're done talking about this" i sigh
"so he didn't do anything else" he clarifies
"jesus owen, drop it" i groan and walk out of my room with him following behind
"where are you going" he asks
"away from you" it was raining outside so i knew it would be cold but i don't think he would follow if i did

i step outside letting the cool water hit my skin
"alana...alana!" he cals out after me
"what the hell are you doing you're going to get sick" he says
"i just want to scream"
"do it" he laughs
so there i was in the middle of the road screaming looking like an idiot
"now what is going on" he walks over to me
"i don't know i really don't i just don't feel like myself and i haven't the past few days i'm unhappy and i don't know what to do"
i laugh because i don't know what else to do
"so let's talk, preferably inside" he suggests

i lay down on the pavement getting soaked by the rain
"jesus"
he lays down next to me groaning
"have you had sex in the street" he asks
"um. no. what is wrong with you"
"you shouldn't, i had gravel in my knees for a week" he jokes
i hit him with the hand that was closest to him
"alright why are we laying in the street what if a car comes"
"no cars drive down here" i tell him
"are you cold"he asks
"no i'm okay"
"you're in a tank top"
"really? i had no idea"

"i need to tell you something and you cant be mad about it" he says
"okay?"
"i need to leave town for a little bit"
i sit up and look at him
"what?"
"i can't explain it i just need to and wanted to tell you"
"when do you leave"
"sometime in the next few days"
"owen"i sigh
"it won't be for long"
"why can't you tell me"
"family stuff i don't know"

"how long will you be gone for" i ask
"i don't know yet"
"what do you mean you don't know"
"it could be a few weeks maybe a few months"
"months?"
"it won't be long, it shouldn't be"
"what about school?"
"my dad already talked to them, i have it figured out."
"right" i mumble

"if i didn't have to go i wouldn't alana, i don't want to leave you and the rest of our friends and you need to trust me on that"
"so then don't"
"it's not that easy"
"if you miss my birthday i will kill you" i tell him
"i promise i won't miss it"
"you don't know that, don't make promises you can't keep"
"may 2nd"
i nod
"i will try as hard as i can"

i know there was no way he could get out of this, i don't even know where he's going or when he would come back

"can we go inside now i'm soaked" he asks
"yeah"
"do you still want the rest of the group over?"
"yeah sure i don't care"
i throw him another pair of sweatpants and a t shirt to change into
"see i'm not kidding when i say you have half my wardrobe" he says
"well it's not my fault i don't feel like putting jeans back on after we have sex"
"you could just wear nothing"
i chuck a pillow at him and grab dry clothes to change into