Battles In Life

33

It's been two days since I have seen Lochie. I just want to take my time. we have still communicated via text but I'm still struggling to get my head around knowing the magazine is out. I am doing everything in my power to avoid the paparazzi and just the public. I took a taxi to jiu jitsu and I will take another one home I don't feel comfortable walking around.
"Morning dana" "morning corey" "how was your weekend?" "Relaxing" "sore?" "No I'm good now" corey nodded "well let's get straight into it, I'm going to push you harder today and we are going to go over what you have learnt" "okay I am up for it".

The session was hard corey had slammed me to the mats about ten times but I'm feeling great and I learnt some more moves. "How are you feeling dana?" "Really good actually" "good I'm sure you will be sore later but you done well and you are getting a lot stronger plus your moves are really clean" "thank you" "well we are done I will see you Wednesday" "I will just be out in the reception room, I need to call a taxi" "don't you usually walk?" "Yes but I'm doing everything I can to avoid being noticed" corey nodded "how are you handling it?" "It's not easy knowing my face is out there but I just have to deal with it" "and you and Lochie?" "I seen him on Friday" "how come you didn't come to lunch yesterday?" "I'm taking my time corey. things won't go back to the way they were straight away" "I understand that but I'm glad you are talking to him" I nodded "I will see you Wednesday" "bye dana".

Walking out of the training room, I called a taxi and sat on the couch waiting.
"Oh my God you are dana blanche you were in the hernandez magazine" I looked the female who had just walked through the door she was with two other females.
This is exactly what I wanted to avoid. Seeing a taxi roll up I stood up. "Can I get a photo with you?" "I'm sorry I've got to go" running out, I got in the taxi giving the driver my address and we left.
Arriving back at the complex, I thanked the driver and got out heading straight up the elevator to my apartment.
Hearing my phone ring, I looked at the screen to see my mom calling.
"Hi mom" "dana why the hell are you in a magazine?" "It's complicated" "well explain it, when we left you were a mess and now you are posing in a magazine and not to mention in alexander drays clothing and in one of the most well known magazines" "mom I had to do it, I met alexander drays and from that moment he wanted no one else to model his clothing I did it as a favor for Lochie for helping me" "how are you feeling?" "Overwhelmed but I'm doing all I can to avoid the public" "this is not helping you" "I'm handling it, I am still working, staying fit and healthy and doing jiu jitsu" "but what about your freedom that you so desperately wanted" "I don't know mom" "are the security still surrounding the doors?" "Yes always" "good. Do you want your father and I home?" "No mom I want you two to continue to enjoy your holiday" "what about your past and why were you modelling with Adam?" "If something happens which I hope it doesn't I will just deal with it the best I can. As for adam I explained to him what had happened and he was really shocked and angry" "you don't think he will give you up?" "I don't get that vibe from him plus he doesn't know where I live" "good just be careful dana I don't want anything to happen I want you to enjoy your life, you have already made so much progress" "I know mom, me too" "alright I will call you tomorrow, I am quite worried dana" "I know mom I will speak to you then okay" "okay dana I love you" "I love you too".

Hanging up the phone I put it on the bench.
Handling it? Ha it's only the first day and I have this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach like I want to throw up. I am not made for this. how am I going to get through the rest of my days with my face out there. My hands were already shaking before, after the encounter with that female at the centre. I need to pull myself together.
Hearing my phone go off I knew who it would be. I grabbed my phone dropping it by accident. Picking it up off the floor, I looked at my phone it was a message from Lochie.

Lochie - hey dana I hope you had a good session today.
- it was fine
Lochie - is there something wrong?
- I will speak to you later
Lochie - dana I can see through your messages that something isnt right. Do you need me there?
- no

Turning the music on, I sat down stereo. Doing some research I heard that yoga can help not only physically but mentally. Jumping on youtube I found a yoga video

Lochie - corey told me three people at the centre were bouncing around in excitement meeting you is this why you aren't happy?
- I'm fine Lochie I'm going to do some yoga I will speak to you later

Putting the phone against the stereo cabinet I pressed play. Watching what the lady was doing I followed of course maybe a second behind. It is actually quite relaxing.

Lochie

I have been speaking with dana the past couple of days but I haven't seen her since I left Saturday morning. I'm not going to push seeing her, I'm just thrilled she is not pushing me out of her life. I haven't told anyone not even heather and I don't plan too, it's my private life and I want to keep it that way. Dana is not one to talk to people and I respect that which means I will not be talking about her.
Grabbing my phone out I looked at the time to see it was one o'clock hmm dana will be finished.

- hey dana I hope you had a good session today.
Dana - it was fine
Hmm something is off
- is there something wrong?
Dana - I will speak to you later
- dana I can see through your messages that something isnt right. Do you need me there?
- no

Maybe she's just sore and needs to relax.
Just as I went to put my phone down it rang. Why would corey be calling at this hour.

"Hey Corey" "hey lochie are you still at work?" "Yes why?" "I wanted to know if you had seen dana" "no, didn't she go?" "She came but after her session I'm guessing she was spotted by three of my clients. They were all jumping around excited they had met dana but one had mentioned they were devastated when dana refused a photo with them and took off" "far out, already" "what did you expect" "yeah I know thanks Corey" "I will talk to you soon" "okay cya" "bye".

- corey told me three people at the centre were bouncing around in excitement meeting you is this why you aren't happy?
Dana - I'm fine Lochie I'm going to do some yoga I will speak to you later

Yoga? Another coping technique.
Doing some research on it, it can be used to help stress and anxiety.
Argh far out the first day she is out and the magazines only just hit the shelves.
Knock knock
"Come in"
"You wouldn't believe it Lochie the magazine has already sold out across the city" "that's great heather" "we should get some more printed" "if you feel that it's what we should do you can organise it" "Lochie is this what you want, it is your company" "no I want them all destroyed" "what but this is our best yet" "yeah I know" heathers faced softened "you love her" "that's personal. Do what you need to do. I'm going to head home" heather nodded "I will not get anymore printed go rest and take it easy" "okay have a good day".

I don't plan to rest. I plan to go make sure dana is alright she is my main priority.

Getting to the top floor of the complex I knocked on danas door. I still can't access it by code and I don't blame her for not giving it to me.
Knocking again I waited.
I'm just hoping she'll answer the door.
Hearing her unlock the door I sighed in relief.
"Lochie what are you doing here?" "Can I come In?" "Okay".
Dana held the door open then closed it after I walked in.
"Dana I know you're not okay" "I'm handling it, do you want a drink?" "No thank you I just wanted to see you" "Lochie you shouldn't have left work I'm on top of it" "are you?" "Yes" "then why are you shaking?" "The shaking is the first to come and the last to go" "come here" I pulled dana in for a hug "I'm sorry dana, I really am".