Battles In Life

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F*ck that was hard. a day full of different emotions from nervous to happiness and all the feelings in between. What I need to do right now it's go home, eat, put some music on and rest. Watching everyone leave I waved good bye with tears in my eyes as the car took off the tears ran down my cheeks. Why the hell am I crying I don't even know. I haven't cried in years.
"Dana are you alright?" "Ahh yeah.. I'm fine I just need to go home and rest can you tell Lochie I will see him later" I wiped the tears from my face but more just kept coming "Dana look at me" I shook my head "no I'm going to go" I did the first thing I thought of and walked out the door heading towards my apartment.

"Dana stop" corey was in front of me but I couldn't look up at him I just shook my head "your crying" "I'm fine corey just leave me be please" corey did the last thing I expected him to do he put his arms around me tight as I just stood with my head against his chest. "I.. I don't even know why I'm crying" "because you need to" "I haven't cried in years corey this is stupid" "no it's not, you have held everything in dana you need to let it out" "I need to go home" "come on, I'll drive you" I nodded. Corey let go and we headed back to the centre. After he locked it we left.
"Will you be okay?" "Yeah I just need to go home" "dana if you need anything you know we are here for you" I nodded "thanks Corey" "and I promise we were only stirring back there" "I know".
As we pulled up out the back of the complex I took my belt off "thanks for today corey" "you are more than welcome dana" I nodded and got out of the car heading straight up to my apartment.
Opening the door with shaking hands I pushed it forward and walked in closing the door. Heading to the kitchen I gulped down a whole glass of water before making myself a sandwich and sat at the table to eat.
My phone vibrated in my pocket but I wasn't going to answer it. Not even going to look at it until I had done what I needed to do for myself. Eat and rest. Finishing my sandwich, i got up from the table taking my plate to the sink and headed to my room turning the music on I then laid down on my bed kicking my shoes off.
What an emotional rollercoaster I don't know what made me cry or why the tears kept falling but as corey said, I need to let them out. He's right I have held them in for years. Hearing my work phone go off, I cursed at myself for forgetting to put it to the answering machine. It's Sunday I don't need or want any work calls. Getting up, I walked in to the second bedroom pressing the button on my machine to send all calls to that before going back to my room laying down.
Closing my eyes the last thing i saw was lochies chocolate brown eyes.

Waking up to someone pounding on my door, I lifted myself off the bed. Looking through the peek hole it was Lochie. "Lochie what the hell?" Lochie walked in and I closed the door "Dana do you not answer your phone" "what is wrong?" "I was worried" "argh I was sleeping Lochie just relax" "how can I relax after corey told me you were upset when you left" "it was just an emotional day, now are you going to calm down" "yeah" I watched him relax "good, now I am going back to bed" walking back to the room I laid back down. "Dana it's nearly six in the evening" "yeah, right now I'm not ready to get up" "I am going to cook and you need to eat" "okay, wake me when it's done" "what is wrong dana?" "I'm just tired Lochie too many emotions in one day now can I just rest?" "as long as you are alright" "I am".
Closing my eyes I felt like I was wide awake. argh that'll be bloody right. Rolling on my back, I looked at the ceiling Just staring at it, Thinking about how much everything has changed. I can't believe this all started out of jealousy and she went crazy all over my ex. I can't believe she went to the point of telling jordan I slept with his best mate and threatened to hurt latisha's younger sister if the girls didn't hit me. I don't blame the girls. if I had someone I needed to protect, id probably do it to. Oh I need to call mom.
Grabbing my phone from my pocket I looked to see I had six missed calls and three messages all from Lochie. Not bothering to look at them I called mom.
"Hey dana" "hey mom how's you holiday?" "We are having a wonderful time. Is everything okay?" "Have you got time to talk?" "Yes of course" "okay, umm were you the one who found me when I was beaten?" "Dana why are we talking about this?" "I will tell you but can you tell me" "yes I was, I received a phone call from Danielle" I nodded not that she could see "it wasn't jordan, Danielle, corby, Latisha or Gabby who put me in a coma mom" "what how do you know that?" "Well it all started when jordan had seen me in a magazine he spoke with Adam but adam wouldn't let him contact me because I said not to give him my details. Well jordan contacted Danielle, Latisha and corby and they all wanted to meet with me" "you didn't" "oh no I did after two weeks of thinking about it and to be honest I'm glad I did. I found out the truth. It wasnt the girls nor jordan yes they hit me but jordans was an accident. he was angry because callie told him I had slept with his friend daniel. he went to hit the wall but his hand connected with my head and well the girls all hit me because they were protecting latisha's younger sister but they swore they didn't hit me hard enough to do any damage. I don't blame them, if I had a younger sibling I would protect them too" "so what are you saying dana?" "The person who did all this to me was callie" "she f*cking what?" "Yeah mom I didn't even know she was there but according to jordan and then the girls she was. she's the one who cut my head and knocked me out. Jordan had already left and as soon as callie pulled the knife out the girls yelled at her to stop and when she hit me over and over, the girls ran off and that's when Danielle called you" mom went quiet "mom?" "Sorry sweetie I am just trying to process all of this. So you are positive it wasn't them?" "yes I am, they also want to help get her locked up" "dana I don't know how I feel about this" "I'm not sure how they want to do it but I just wanted to let you know what has been going on. It was so good to see everyone today although it was an emotional rollercoaster. And I am so thankful I now know the truth" "you are not upset with any of them hitting you?" "No as I said one was an accident and the others were just protecting latisha's sister I would've done the same" "I know you would've. Okay dana but please keep your dad and I informed. How are you doing?" "I will mom I am doing alright. Feeling tired today now that I am home but other than that I am okay" "and how are you handling the paparazzi and public?" "I'm not I avoid it" "dana" "mom it's okay maybe one day but I am still going to jiu jitsu" "good and how are you getting there and back?" "Taxi". "where did you meet everyone today I hope not at your apartment" "no definitely not, corey let me meet them at his jiu jitsu centre" "good was he there?" "Yes he was and Lochie ended up coming too" "hmm that would've been interesting" "it was but I handled it" "I don't doubt it, I'm very proud of the progress you have made dana and now everything is coming to light".
"Dana dinner is ready" I nodded at lochie "thanks mom, I'm going to go have some dinner but I will speak with you again soon" "alright you take care of yourself" "I will, I hope you and dad take care also" "of course bye dana" "bye mom".
I put my phone on my bedside table and headed out. Lochie had already put our meals on the table. "Thanks Lochie" "you are welcome, didnt get any more rest?" "No as soon as I hit the bed again I was wide awake" Lochie nodded