Battles In Life

31

I honestly slept like crap last night. I don't know how much sleep I got but I know it wasn't much. I'm going to need a lot of coffee to get myself through the day.
Having a shower to freshen up I then made myself some breakfast and left my apartment.
Getting to work sandy was sitting at her desk. "Good morning Mr hernandez" "morning sandy" "would you like a coffee?" "A long black please" "of course I will get that for you now" "thank you".
Walking straight into my office, I closed the door and sat at my desk. Great another pile of potential models for my company. I don't even know if I have the energy to look at them. Deciding against it for now, I waited for sandy to bring me a coffee.

"Come in" sandy walked in with a coffee placing it in front of me on my desk. "I was going through the finances this morning it shows that your friend has sent back the money for the shoot" "yes I am aware. she informed me of that yesterday" "would you like me to try again?" "No she does not want the payment nor the outfits" "okay. Would you like me to organise for them to be sent back to mr alexander drays?" "No that'll only make him ask questions, if you would like them, you are more than welcome to them if not they can sit in a box" "are you okay mr hernandez?" "Very tired" "I can see that, if there's anything I can do please let me know" "thank you sandy".
Sandy left me with my coffee and I started looking through all the potential models. Out of about fifty, I was only happy with two but I will get heathers opinion on the rest before I make my decision.

Knock knock.

"Good morning Lochie" "morning Heather, just the person I wanted to see. I have been through another fifty portfolios can you have a look to see if you like any of them" "did you find any?" "Only two".
Heather sat looking through all the portfolios "what about this one?" Heather handed me the portfolio "I don't think he will be a natural in front of the camera. I have these two already what do you think?" Heather had a look at the two portfolios "yes they show confidence and they are both very good looking guys" "I agree" "well I can't find anymore in here either" "thanks".
"You look like crap Lochie why are you here?" "It's my company" "we haven't got much going on today, the magazines will be here later today to be shipped out but other than that there's nothing going on. you should go home and rest" "I can't sleep anyway so there's no point, being here keeps my mind busy" "Lochie you need to rest" "oh I know".
Hearing my phone ring I grabbed it off the desk. "Hello" "hi Lochie how are you?" "I'm good mom how are you?" "Hmm you don't sound good" "is everything okay?" "Yes I was hoping you and dana will join us for lunch again this Sunday" "ahh danas a little Ill at the moment I don't know if she can join but I will definitely be there" "oh I hope she gets better soon" "yeah, I will see you Sunday" "I'm really looking forward to it take care Lochie" "you too mom".
Hanging up the phone heather spoke "your parents don't know?" "No and they really like dana, it was the only excuse I could use" heather nodded "well if you decide to leave go home and rest" "thanks".

Dana

"You have improved a lot over the past couple of months dana" "thanks Corey, as I said I really enjoy it plus my instructor has been good too" corey grinned "how's the body?" "Oh it's been sore but at least I know it's worth it and I have all weekend to let it rest before we get back into it" "you are right" "do you work on weekends?" "Saturday morning but never a Sunday" "at least you take some time for yourself. Well I better get going I have a food order getting delivered very shortly" "do you not go out to shop?" "No I don't I can get everything online and I don't have to deal with so many people" "that's fair enough. Take care dana I will later you monday" "you too corey".

Leaving the jiu jitsu center I took the short walk back to the apartment complex as I got to the back of the building there was Lochie talking with one of the guards.
"Hi everyone" Lochie looked at me as I walked past "dana wait I will join you in the elevator" I pressed the button waiting for the doors to open and stepped in, Lochie doing the same. "How was jiu jitsu?" "Good as always" I couldn't look at him but I felt his gaze on me. I knew if I looked into his eyes they would draw me in. "Did you have a good morning?" "It was alright just looking at some more portfolios" I nodded. Feeling Lochie grab my hand, I looked at his hand on mine "dana I have really missed you, can you please just look at me" raising my head to look at lochie his chocolate brown eyes drew me in like always "Im really sorry, I know I put you in a position you didn't want to be in" the elevator stopped and the doors opened. Stepping out Lochie continued to hold my hand like he never wanted to let go. "I've got to go in, I have a delivery coming" "can I join you?" Knowing the security was there and most likely listening in i nodded. Opening the door with my key instead of the code I walked in holding the door open for Lochie.
As soon as he walked in I closed the door.
"Do you want a drink?" "A water thanks" I nodded getting him and I a water then sat at the table. Lochie joining me.
"Here" "thanks".
"Corey told me you have had a few panic attacks" "yes but I dealt with them" "how?" I shrugged "Dealt with them or just woke up after them" "both" "why did you change the codes?" "Because I wanted to be on my own. Excuse me"
Answering my phone I knew it was one of the guards.
"Hello" "hi miss blanche you have a food delivery here" "yes I am expecting that please send them up" "okay" "thank you".

"Your food delivery?" "Yes" "would you like a hand to put it away?" "No".
Hearing three knocks at the door I pushed my chair back.
Getting up from the table, I opened the door.
"Delivery for miss blanche" "yes that's me" "would you like me to bring it in?" "Just inside the door is fine, thank you".
After the two men put the shopping inside the door, I signed for it and they left.
Carrying some bags to the kitchen Lochie got up grabbing the others. "I could've done it" "I know but I wanted to help" I nodded.
Putting the shopping away, I kept some meat out so I could use it for dinner.
"Thanks" "it's okay".
Sitting back at the table Lochie joined me.
"My parents invited the both of us for lunch on Sunday do you want to join me?" "I don't know if that's a good idea Lochie I'm sorry" "why not?" "Because Im confused" "about us?" I nodded "dana please don't push me out of your life. I know you aren't happy with having to do the shoot but I don't want to live without you, you have found a spot in my heart and I'm not ready to let you go" "I just don't know Lochie. Yes I like you and I've missed having you around but I didn't like being put in that position" with my elbows resting on the table I ran my hands over my face just lightly shaking my head "I'm hating the fact that my face will be out in the public and my name, I never wanted this" "I know and I'm really sorry".
I didn't know what else to say. Hearing lochie get up I wasn't sure if he was going to leave or not but if he does I won't stop him.
To my surprise he came over wrapping his arms around me from the side. "Can you please look at me" I removed my hands from my face and gave him eye contact "I can't lose you dana, I don't want anyone else. And knowing you have that place in my heart and mind I know I love you, I am struggling to sleep not knowing what is happening between us and not sleeping beside you. I miss your eyes, your smile, the smell of your light strawberry perfume, holding you and kissing you. I just miss you and I want to be with you" the air got caught in my throat he just told me he loves me he put his heart on the line and I just couldn't say anything.
"Look you don't have to say anything. I don't expect you to tell me you love me back but I hope you will give me the chance to show you how sorry I am and to let me be in your company I have really missed you dana" I nodded. After a few moments of silence I spoke "Would you like to stay for dinner?" Lochie gave me a million dollar smile "I'd love too".