wander

35|the bad memories

I heard the door slam and I shot up quickly. I swung my legs over my bed and grabbed the first hoodie I saw. I opened my door and took each stair until I reached the front door. I reached for the door handle and I heard something smash. My hand flinched back and I took a deep breath. I reached for the door handle once again and pulled it towards me.

Romeo was sat on the stairs of the front porch, his face looked town to the floor and his hands wrapped around his neck. I took a step forward but only slightly.

"Romeo?" My voice comes out smaller than I expected. He doesn't reply, "Romeo...baby?" I was hoping the use of the word baby would grab his attention. He snapped his neck around. So it did work.
"You- you just called me baby."
"I did." I smile and he lets out a smile too.

"Come inside... please? Come to my room?" I ask, close to silently.
"Okay baby." He takes me hand and I close the door. I lead him up the stairs to my room. I sit on my bed and pat the space next to me for him to sit. He takes his shoes off and sits next to me on the bed. I lean back so my head is on the pillow and he does the same. I lift my hand towards his face and swipe my thumb across his tear stained cheek.

"So... are you going to tell me what's wrong?" I ask in a sweet voice.
"I don't want to worry you with my problems."
"Your problems are mine too!"
"It was about Harry."
"Oh" I sigh, I feel my chest tighten.
"Yeah I was on your instagram and you should see what these guys are commenting. It's disgusting baby. They don't know anything and they're saying all this... shit about you. How are you still so calm right now?" He cries.
"I ignore it. I don't really use the app so I haven't seen it. I don't plan on it." I simply reply.

That was the truth. I haven't bothered to check and I still don't. They can say all this about me, not like they didn't treat me like this when I was at school anyways. For fuck save, some of these guys punched me.

"Well then I started thinking... if they did anything to you and I got so mad." I flinched at his words as the memories flashed back. I could see it all again.

Flashback

I take my lunch and sit in my usual table in the corner. I sat by myself... every day. I took a bite out of my apple but put it back on the table. I rested my head on my palm and closed my eyes to stop the feelings getting to me. I hear a shuffle around me and look up. Great. My day couldn't get any better. Now we have Harry, Zach, Will, Chris and Ben surrounding me on my table. I roll my eyes and the boys share looks to eachother.

"What the fuck do you want?" I sigh, tired of their bullshit.
"Ooh fiesty today huh?" Zach raised an eyebrow.
"Just leave for fuck sake." I go to stand up but Harry and Ben tug me back down. 
"Woahh where do you think you're going? We want to talk to you." Harry whispers to my ear.

I sit back to my chair and let out a deep sigh. Harry scoots closer to me and runs his hand through his hair before reaching down to my lunch.
"So boys today we have... a half eaten apple, chips and oreos. What you want Will?" Harry raises an eyebrow to Will.
"How about you have the lunch and I'll have the girl to your right yeah?" Will smirks.
"Oh my god you are having nothing of mine." I get up and leave with my lunch.

They boys all stand in unison and follow me. I was walking to my next class... which none of them were in.
"I swear if you guys will keep following me I will literally get school's security on you." I stormed off yet they didn't stop following me. I reached my locker and opened it to put my books away. I slammed the locker close and walk up to Ben.

"You need to stop following me." I said incredibly close to his face, we were an inch away from our lips touching. But before I walked away I threw a quick punch to his nose. The boys gasped and a crowd had started to form. All being filmed, of course. Ben did not take that well and pinned me against a locker... you guessed it. Threw a punch back. Harry, Zach,  Will and Chris pull him off of me and Mr Stevens took me to his classroom.

Mr Stevens was my english teacher and I was doing the best in his class. End of story, Ben got expelled for punching me, I got suspended for a week and Harry and the others were kept a close eye on for my safety. They didn't bother with me at school but when walking home they would always be rude and flirt with me. That was about the most attention I got. Other than that, no one knew who I was.

Present day

Romeo noticed how I had a small reaction to when he asked about them hurting me.
"Chiara what did they do. I swear if they touched you-" his eyes grew darker.
"No no nothing like that just like... fights... I guess." My voice got quieter as I continued my sentence.
"Chi that's not any better." I stayed silent. I had never spoken to anyone about the fights. Not even my Mother, or school about the ones that came after the Ben fight.
"You promise they never did... that?" he asks quietly.
"I promise baby."

He presses a kiss to my lips and I close my eyes. I peek my eyes open to see Romeo's eyes still open.
"You're not still tired are you?" He whines.
"No... are you?" I whisper.
"No"

I smile to myself and let out a little giggle. I shake my head because I'm laughing over something stupid.
"What?"
"I'm hungry though" I whisper and shoot up from bed and run down the stairs. I take out the bread and make a simple sandwich. Romeo finally reaches me and blows a deep breath.

"You are way to quick!"

I let out a giggle and go back to my sandwich.