𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭 // 𝘣𝘢𝘥𝘦

and you were too afraid

smut warning

if you are reading with virgin eyes beware please

she slowly melted into the kiss, wrapping her hands tightly around his waist as he slipped his tongue into the back of her mouth when she opened her lips. moving his hands up her back and tangling them softly in her hair.

he tugged at the bottom of her shirt, indicating he wanted it off. she felt the butterflies rise in her stomach as the touch of his cold hand on her warm abdomen as he slowly crept his hand under her shirt and circled around her pale skin.

he bit down on her lower lip roughly making her whimper as she shoved her lips against his once more. cupping her lower hips softly in his hands, missing this feeling.

missing her.

"jade-" he said suddenly, pulling away from the kiss. she raised an eyebrow, sighing at him.

"what?" she shot back in an unusually whiny voice, he tried not to smile at her.

"i'm dating tori-" he continued and her heart jolted. her mind stopped thinking. her heart that had once begged for him was getting rejected. and she wasn't supposed to care. it wasn't supposed to hurt this bad.

"oh please... you're just dating tori for that stupid little bet" she gawked him. she could barely form the words.

if she didn't care so much why did it feel like she had just died a million little times.

"you don't know why i'm dating tori" he shot back and she laughed, giving him a very matter of fact look. he wiped his lips off with his hand. she laughed more.

"whatever you wanna say beck. but come on she won't know" she rolled her eyes stepping closer to him. he felt himself give in. it would be so much easier to just give in to her now. and they could be in love. like they used to.

he stood there, mesmerized by her loving gaze, one he had longed for for three months now.

"no-" he shook his head backing away.

"no?" she repeated laying off slightly and backing up too.

"well jade, it is 3:04 am so technically right now i control everything you do. so i demand you to go back to your sleeping bag and go to bed." he said flatly and she gawked at him once again.

"you demand me?" she repeated to which he nodded hesitantly. she bit down on her lip in what looked like a deep thought before she sighed.

"fuck you forever" she muttered under her breath as she walked out of the bathroom and slammed the door behind her, making him flinch.

he tried to remember why he hated her. why he ultimately left her. why he couldn't stand her aggressive attitude or her mean demeanor. he tried to think of a valid reason he had just kicked her out of the room.

tori. that was the valid reason.

and he was a lot of things, but a cheater wasn't one.

at least not yet.

he listened to her quiet footsteps as she stomped back to her sleeping bag and heard her huffing quiet down in a few minutes.

he leaned down in front of the mirror, knowing something dangerous was coming. he yelled at himself, almost bit down on his lip so hard it bled to stop. but he knew he couldn't.

he wouldn't stop.

not with her on the line.

his legs carried him out of the room and out to all the sleeping bags scattered across the floor. he searched for it and, boom, he would recognize the way jade only slept on her back anywhere. and she was the only one moving around. he tiptoed over to her sleeping bag.

she had clearly heard him, for she jerked her head around and scoffed at him, rolling her eyes. turning back around and crossing her arms. he tried to stop, he really did. he guilty conscience screamed for him to stop, but the way her hair fell neatly across the floor, and the way her eyes sparked at him, and just the way she existed, must have been too much for him to handle.

he sat down on the floor next to her, knowing she knew he had sat there. he waited for a minute or two before she inevitably turned around to face him, most likely to yell at him.

but she didn't yell. it would've been easier to yell. she was mad. confused. angry. but something stopped her. the way he stares into her eyes, the way his hand gracefully reached down and began to rub her thigh back and forth rhythmically. she tried not to squirm, in fear that he would stop. he rubbed it back and forth lightly.

back and forth.

and back.

and forth.

and back.

and a little too far forth.

she hitched her breath. looking up at him with a list filled stare. he took a hint. he scooted closer to her, fitting next to her in the sleeping bag so their bodies were pushed up close next to each other. his arms holding around her waist tightly, keeping her securely in his arms and not letting her move.

her heart fluttered. she ached. ached for him.

he slid his down her abdomen slickly, making her press her back side against him even further, the comfort and tightness of the sleeping bag keeping them both together warmly. she closed her eyes, praying that it wasn't a dream.

"this ok?" he whispered in her ear.

"if it's ok with you it's ok with me" she responded as he dipped his fingers beneath the band of her shorts  and slid them down deeper. she gripped onto on of his hands and onto the fabric of the sleeping bag.

he grazed his hands over her swollen flesh, pressing down lightly as the pulsing coming from her made him smile. he dipped one finger into her, it going in easily because of her wetness.

she moaned lightly and he shushed her quietly. softly entering another finger, hoping to keep her quiet. she scrunched her face together, praying to stay silent.

"does it hurt?" he whispered in her ear softly.

she shook her head no.

a lie.

because if hurt more then anything. hurt that he wasn't hers. hurt that she didn't have him. hurt that she didn't know what to do with herself. hurt that she didn't know if he loved her back. hurt that he was someone else's.

hurt the most that she loved him. and she always had.

but it hurt the most that she just realized it.

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