memories | yuzuru hanyu ff (on hold)

Chapter 21

For some reason, my heart ached at the sight, making me look away. I started feeling tears erupting from my eyes, feeling as if I'm about to vomit. I started seeing white spots as my stomach twisted and turned. It wasn't a good feeling. I excused myself, and tried to get out of there as soon as possible. I left and asked the waiter where the toilet was. With my luck, they said that I had to go outside to go to the toilet. I nodded and went outside.

I started feeling dizzy again. I wanted to throw up but that's rude of me to do it out in public. I rushed to the female restroom and went inside a stall. I started hurling but nothing came out. I gagged and coughed, making me teary. I took a deep breath, calming my stomach and my breath. I flushed the toilet, wiped my mouth and sat on the cover of the seat.

'Why? Why am I feeling like this again? I thought it stopped, yet here I am, feeling hopeless.'

I started getting frustrated making me hit myself.

"Idiot, idiot, idiot, idiot!" I said repetitively as I slapped myself.

The last one was a hard slap, that it echoed across the restroom, making me come to my senses. I calmed down. I came out of the stall to wash my hands and face. Instead, I met Mina in front of the mirror, fixing her lipstick.

"You know, Natsuna-san, I really don't like you." She stated, still fixing her makeup.

I didn't quite ignored her but I didn't also made her a priority. I went straight to the sink to wash my face. The cool water dripped down my cheek and forearms, then went to the tissue disposer to dry my face.

"I noticed..." I said as I patted my face dry.

She closed the lid of her lipstick and put it inside her purse. She folded her arms as she looked at me. She looked like a child that puts too much makeup, and the fact that she was shorter than me completes the look.

"Stay away from him." She said glaring at me.

"From who?" I asked, even though I know who she's referring to.

"Stay away from Yuzuru-kun. He's mine and I'm his. Don't ruin this." She said as she clenched her fist.

I nodded and threw the tissue in the recycling bin. I never wanted to get close with them in the first place, let alone be their assistant. I wanted to forget those shitty memories of the said man, it's easier that way. For all of us.

"Noted, Saikou-san." I said as I pushed the door to get out of toilet.

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Me and Mina were walking side by side. She was skipping happily as I was walking beside her normally. You might think that we're those lesbian couples that one is bubbly and the other is a edge lord. I cringed at the thought that I was a couple with the girl and stayed far away from her. We reached the café and sat down on our previous seats.

Mina immediately held onto Yuzuru as she sat down, engulfing his arms into a hug. Yuzuru smiled at her and pet her head. I mentally threw up at the sight and noticed that Javi and Nam were actually making vomiting noises. I snorted at both of them as Yuzuru gave us a glare.

"What are you guys laughing about?" He said, stuttering as he can't form his words yet.

"Nothing to worry about, Yuzu." Javi said as he waved it hand side to side.