memories | yuzuru hanyu ff (on hold)

Chapter 45

Javi let out a gasp and covered his eyes. The two skaters turned their heads towards us as their face was written with shock.

My eyes was about to burst with tears so I decided to walk away from the scene. Bowing my head down, stepping out of the rink.

Tears were threatening to fall as I walk faster through the hallways of the center. I heard my name being called by Yuzuru but I didn't want him to see me this way.

To see me this affected by a simple kiss.

'Okay, yeah, it wasn't just a simple kiss, it was a confession but still...'

It wasn't my place or my right to be this affected from it, I wasn't his girlfriend or anything. I was just his friend, and he was just a friend to me as well.

'It was mutual. It should be mutual.'

I kept walking, fastening my pace, until I was out of the center, finding myself catching my breath from the marathon. I could hear his footsteps behind me along with him catching his breath as well.

I stood silent as my tears run down my cheeks. I was trying so hard not to sob but failed to do so. I choked on the sob and immediately cringe at the action I just did.

"Natsuna..." He breathed out.

I looked at the ground as I clenched my fist, biting my lip in the process. I can taste the iron from my blood, making me realize that I bit too hard from keeping my sobs.

"Natsuna." He called again, trying to tell me to turn around but I stayed again.

"Please, Natsuna...Let me explai-" He said as he tried to grab my hand but I pulled my hand away from his grasp.

"There's nothing to explain Yuzuru." I finally breathed out, my back still facing him.

"What I just saw was the explanation itself. Nothing more, nothing less." I said through my teeth.

He grabbed my wrist again, but instead of pulling my own hand successfully, I failed, making me face him with my wet tears on my cheek and hair disheveled.

I immediately pulled my hand away as I looked away from him.

"Natsuna..." He said my name with worry.

I saw Javi and Mina behind him. Mina smirked at the scene making me grit my teeth.

"Fuck my life." I muttered under my breath.

I looked down as I tried composing myself. I heard footsteps rushing towards me, seeing that it was Javi's shoes, I relaxed a bit. Just a bit.

"Natsuna, please let me explain-" Yuzuru pleaded.

"Hanyu-san." I said his name making him stop his plead.

"Let's keep our relationship professional. I don't think it's beneficial for both parties to have this kind of relationship." I said coldly however it still hurts me saying that.

"W-what?" He asked in disbelief.

I kept quiet as Javi and Mina watched. 

Javi didn't speak Japanese but I know he understood the situation as if he did. Recalling his words earlier, I felt upset with myself that I had my hopes up earlier.

'Yuzuru likes me? Bullshit.'

"Good night Hanyu-san, Saikou-san. See you tomorrow. Please keep the relationship between you professional, and also inform Tracy-san and Brian-san with this." I bowed as I turned my heels away from them.