memories | yuzuru hanyu ff (on hold)

Chapter 39

"W-what?" I asked, making sure what I heard was correct.

"I'm sorry, Natsuna." Yuzuru said as he looked away from me.

I lay back down on my bed as I processed the information.

I didn't know whether I should be worried or relieved that I was finally free. My mom gave everything that I needed for my mental health. Therapy? She paid it. A roof? She gave it. Food? She cooked it. All of my necessities were given.

But that's it.

What I needed the most was emotional support, and sadly, she never gave that. Love? Nonexistent. She cares one second, the next she'll despise you as if you're a piece of shit on the sidewalk. Not unless you have money or good sex.

Probably the only time she'll notice you.

I let out a shaky sigh as I squeezed both of my hands together.

I wanted to cry, but not in front of them.

"Can I...Can I please have some space?" I whispered.

I couldn't speak in English as I was too overwhelmed.

Yuzuru stayed for a moment then nodded.

"We'll be outside. Call us if you need anything." He said as he stood up.

I bowed, thanking him for understanding. They all left after that, following Yuzuru.

'My mom's being taken to court...'

I laughed at the thought. Tears were forming. I didn't know whether it was tears of joy or not. I laughed so hard that my stomach was in so much pain. I stopped.

"I'm fucking crazy." I said with a smile as I stared at the moon one last time before sleep took over me, trying to ignore everything that was happening.

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I came out of the psychiatrist's office after observing my behavior. She said that I do have depression but she also said that I may be manic depressed.

'I knew it.'

It was still around 4 here so there a few people in the hallway. Some were already in their respective wards and rooms, some were outside walking around, enjoying the breeze. I wanted to go back to my room as I felt mentally tired.

The nurse pushed the wheelchair behind me.

We arrived at my room and helped get into the bed as my wound suddenly opened from all the movements. I winced in pain as I laid my head back. She quickly lifted my gown revealing my torso wrapped in bandage. She undid the bandage.

I widened my eyes as I saw the wound.

'Did I cut it that big?'

I immediately winced when she applied the antibiotic cream on the wound but felt better right after. I sighed out of relief as I watched her carefully dab the cream. Suddenly the door busted open revealing Yuzuru.

"Natsuna!" He shouted with a smile as his arms were up in the air.

"Y-Yuzuru-san!" I said feeling embarrassed as my gown was lifted up.

He noticed then immediately blushed while he stared.

"C-close your eyes!" I shouted as he slapped his face with his hand, covering his eyes.

"This kids..." The nurse muttered as she stood up.

"Excuse me, sir, but please knock when entering a patient's room." She said as she pushed the male out and closed the door shut.