Chasing Butterflies

Chapter 20

MACY'S POV

ni-ready ko na yung cookies sa lamesa pati juice, maya-maya may kumatok na ulit. Si Josh na siguro to

"yung totoo Josh wala ka bang klase?" tanong ko sa kanya pagbukas ko ng pinto

"wala swear, so nasaan na yung cookies ko?" sagot niya sakin sabay tumawa

Tinuro ko sa kanya yung cookies sa lamesa sa living room, pumunta naman na siya sa couch at kumain na at aba binuksan pa ang tv feel at home na feel at home talaga

Tumabi ako sa kanya sa couch, humahanap ako ng tiyempo para sabihin sa kanya yung Beach trip ng barkada

Nakita kong may chocolate na sa gilid ng labi niya so kumuha ako ng tissue and pinunasan ko yon

"napaka caring naman, pano pa kaya kapag tayo na?" at naasar pa nga niya ko sa ginawa ko

"may iba sayo ngayon josh ha puro ka pa banat nakakainis ka" sabay tinawanan ko siya

I mean I know na he's happy pero may something na nagsasabi sakin na pinipilit lang niya

"I might not reach graduation— hell baka nga hindi ko na maabutan opening ng UAAP. That's why I'm trying my best to be happy with kuya and you kase yun yung importante sakin ngayon" he told me with a big smile on his face but tears in his eyes

I know Josh is a strong person pero mukhang nahihirapan na talaga siya

Kinuha ko yung bowl of cookies sa kanya at nilagay ko yon sa coffee table, hinarap ko yung face niya sakin. I looked straight in his eyes and held his face

"hey look at me, don't ever say those things again okay kase magagalit talaga ko sayo. Aabot ka sa grad and makakapaglaro ka pa sa UAAP mag cha-champion pa kayo! I believe in you okay? please be strong not even for me Josh but for yourself" I told him trying my best na hindi umiyak dahil ayokong maging madrama kami ngayon

"you lost your dad to brain cancer, I don't want you to go through the same pain again— teka bakit ba ko nagdadrama sayo ng ganito eh I don't know if you feel—"

Pinutol ko na siya don. "shhh diba sabi mo you can wait for me? That's what you're gonna do magpakalakas ka kase hihintayin mo ko" I smiled at him and inabot ko na ulit sa kanya yung bowl of cookies

We laughed it off nalang dahil naging madrama na kami. Namili na kami pareho ng papanoorin sa netflix and we both chose Friends, I just found out na pareho pala namin tong comfort show.

Day by day I learn new things about him and that makes me happy. I don't want to rush things with him, I know I feel the same way about him but I know we both have to wait for the perfect timing.

All I have to do now is just be with him and pray. He's a strong guy, I know he's not gonna give up easily just like my dad.

Nagising nalang ako when someone was knocking on my door

Nagulat ako pagkagising ko nasa kama na ko eh from what I remember kanina nakasandal lang ako sa balikat ni josh habang nanonood ng movie, pagkagising ko wala na din si josh. Naligpit narin yung kinainan namin

Binuksan ko na yung Pinto and si ysa yung bumungad sakin

"himala umabot ka dito sa katip?" tanong ko sa kanya habang dire direktso siya sa couch ko