The Unexpected

Chapter 32

Eventually that girl leaves and Damon comes outside.
"I'm sorry Payson"
I nod and say "who was she?"
He sighs, he looks stressed.
"She is Ashley"
"Ok?" I question wanting him to explain who this Ashley is.
"She is my.."
"Oh I get it, your friends with benefits?"
"Not friend"
"So your benefit?"
He nods and I feel so stupid for falling for him.
"Yeah it's"
I nod and start to stand up.
"Payson I'm sorry"
"It was fake Damon so"
"Yeah, she's pregnant"
"Ashley?"
He sighs and says "yes, I'm so sorry" he gives me sad eyes but No he's not, he meant to do this.
I really wonder how many times he's hooked up with her while I was here.
But then again I don't want to know.
I walk inside and go to my room.
I close the door and the tears start coming.
I grab my bag and start packing.
I can't do this anymore.
I need to go back to my real world.
My waitress job, my crappy studio apartment, my junky but decent life that I can tolerate and didn't have as much drama.

I finish packing and change into sweats and a oversized tee shirt and go back to bed.

I get up at 8:30 and go to the bathroom and get ready to go back home today.

I put on leggings and a sweatshirt while putting my hair up in a messy bun.
I get on Nike shoes and I get a piece of paper and write Damon a note.

'Damon
This opportunity was great at first, thank you for the pay checks that I've gotten, it's helped me save up and will help me when I get home, thank you for the vehicle it's very appreciated.
But I can't do this anymore, I know we have a contract but since your going to be a father I don't think it will be wise to carry on.
If you want I can tell people it just didn't work between us and there's no bad blood or whenever we can figure it out with Sasha but in the mean time I hope your life is good and you get to do the music you want to do.
Goodbye Damon
Payson'
I put the pen down and grab my bag with the paper and head down stairs.
I'm glad I don't see Damon.
I don't think I can see him now.
I put the note on the kitchen counter and grab my keys and get directions to my apartment and left.

I drove to my apartment and called Taylor and told her everything that happened.
She came over right away and comforted me.
"I'm so sorry Payson"
I shrugged and we hugged each other.
She let go and we went on my couch and talked.
"So are you going back to work or do you keep the modeling?"
"I don't know Taylor maybe go back to the diner"
"Payson I don't think you can, like modeling girl"
"What else am I suppose to do? We all knew it would end so and I would be back here"
"Payson but..."
"There's no but's it's just reality"
She sighs and we're silent.
Taylor gets up and grabs a grocery bag and gets out ice cream, dark chocolate and pecan pie.
She put them all in front of us and she turned on the t.v. and we watch all the movies and eat.

Eventually it's 7 pm and we order food and then I hear my phone.

I look and I see tons of messages from Damon asking where I am and if we can talk this out.
I see he called a few times and he just called but I ignored it.

"Damon?" Taylor asked.
I nodded and she shook her head.

We started watching t.v. again and waited while the food came.
The door bell rang and Taylor got up and looked at the peep hole.
She came to me and said "Damon's here"
I look at her wide eyed.
"Don't answer" I mouthed to her.
I turn off the t.v. and we both kept quiet.

"Payson please if your here answer the door"
We both kept quiet and just waited till he leaves.
"Payson I just need to talk to you"

Eventually he left and we both sighed in relief.

I turn back in the t.v. and we wait till our food comes.

When it does we both eat and talk more of what's going on in Taylor's life.

We finish up and get on pj's and get ready for bed.
"I can stay here right?" Taylor asked.
"Yeah I was going to ask you to stay"
"Anytime I'll stay"
"Thanks"
I get pillows and blankets for her for the couch.
I give them to her and then I get in my bed and shut off the light.
"Good night Payson"
"Good night Taylor"

I turn over and my eyes are wide open though.

I don't know why but it hurts.
I knew we weren't going to be together but I also wanted to be the only one he is with.
But knowing he's still the same, thinking he would change or he did change more so, he didn't.
I toss and turn until I tear up and cry myself to sleep.
I cry without Taylor knowing because I wanted to look strong in front of her but alone I let loose, I let it all out until I fall asleep.