The Unexpected

Chapter 39 Damon's POV

"Alright Damon you have 5 minutes till you go out" the dictator said to me while I was in my dressing room.

Today I'm telling the full story, the truth and I just hope Payson sees this, she may not forgive me or even talk to me but I just need her to see what she really  means to me.

I look in the mirror and check my hair and outfit which are a pair of skinny dark jeans and a black tee shirt.

I walk out and go backstage and wait till it's my turn to go out.

Eventually I do and I walk out and a audience was on the other side, I smile and wave and sit on the chair next to the host.
"Damon, it's very good to see you"
"You as well Jackson"
"So you have had a crazy year lately"
I chuckle and say "it's been a roller coaster"
"I can see, so let's start with your new album"
"Yes I am working on my new Album, it will be a bit different though this time, I wrote these songs with deeper intention"
"I see that's amazing, when is it coming out? I believe the audience wants Know" and the audience clap to his response.
"I believe in early next year"
"I can't wait for it" and the audience claps again.
"So Damon, what happened with Payson?"
I breath in and out knowing I have to expose myself.
"So Payson was a fake girlfriend, I was a mess and needed to clean up my act and I admit I was a toad, I was a jerk a F-boy, I was just hurting and I'm sorry for all the girls I hurt and I know I can't go back and fix things, but I don't regret meeting Payson, she's amazing, she called me out on my crap, she was kind and looked at me like a real person, we grew each other and I told her things that I didn't tell a lot of people and I admit I was liking Payson and I even Love her"
The host had a 'o' face and the audience did as well.
"Wow I did not expect this"
I smile and shrug.
"Ok what about Ashley explain this"
"So I admit I did sleep with her that night Payson went to her friends and I didn't intend to but she was manipulative and you can believe what you want, but she I believe was jealous, so she made up a lie that she was pregnant and so I would have to cut it off with Payson"
"And you had a court case yesterday confirming she lied and it was her cousin's  pee and she's the one who is actually pregnant?"
"Yes yesterday Ashley was pleaded guilty"
"That's right there folks you herd it Ashley is not pregnant and pleaded guilty" he looked at the camera and the continued on "so what's going on with Payson have you herd from her?"
I sigh and say "I have talked with her, she..... is I herd doing a project not with modeling but her passion that she shared with me and I'm so proud of her for finally getting her work out and I can't wait for you guys to find out and when it publishes guys go and support her, she's an amazing women, ambitious, kind and so sweet, but we have gone our separate ways and I regret that and if we cross paths again we'll I hope I will get a second chance and I can show her what she really means to me and if not I hope the best for her and her dreams will come to life"
"That's beautiful, so Payson if your watching this, Damon loves you is what he's trying to say"
I didn't expect him to say that but he's right I do.
"Alright when we come back Damon will be preforming his new song that's going to be on his new album"
"And cut" the director said.
"You can go get set up while we're on commercial break" Jackson told me.
I nod and get up and go get ready.
I sit at the piano and test the microphone to see if it works well.

After 5 minutes we're back in air.
"And we're back, now we will be hearing Damon Young preform his new song Falling that he wrote for his new album"
And the camera faces me and I start playing the cords and start singing.
I sing about Payson, falling again but this time really hurting someone I really love, and I regret it so much, I sing to myself falling all over again and finally wanting to clean up my act and be better.

Once I finished the crowd went wild and I finally said "I wrote this song at my lowest point, I didn't want to get out of bed because I was so ashamed and my friend Carter he pulled me out and we wrote this, I wrote this about both me and Payson, Payson your the first girl I ever really liked, your the one I was really attracted to all emotionally, mentally and physically, I'm sorry for hurting you, I'm sorry for letting you down, and I know I hurt you and I don't want to again, I love you Payson and I won't stop loving you"
With that i get up and wave to the crowd and walk back stage and grab my things and leave the press studio and drive to the studio where Sasha is.

Once I get there I head in and go to Sasha's office.
I sit down and he says "Damon, I knew it and I'm glad you finally admitted it, you do love her but you do know she's leaving for New York today right?"
"Wait what?!"
"Yeah I reached out and she told me, Her book is getting published"
"Wow I'm happy she is finally doing her passion"
"Yeah but right now let's focus on getting this album done and out"
I nod and we both discuss and start thinking of music videos and other business related things.

After about an hour and a half I head home and just think, I can't believe Payson is going to New York.
But also I'm so proud of her and am excited for her, but there's a part of me that wishes I can run after her and beg on my knees for her forgiveness but I know she wouldn't want that and maybe I just have to let her go.
But there's also a part of me that can't let her go, and maybe I shouldn't let her go, you never know what could happen.
But all I know is I'm not giving up on her no matter how long it takes or how much I have to do to get her because this girl is like no other.