The Unexpected

Chapter 40

I am packing my bag on my bed while Taylor is in the living room part of my studio apartment.
"I'm so excited for you and so proud of you no matter what happened between you and Damon" Taylor said.
"Thank you"
She smiles at me and decides to go to the T.V. And turns it on and flips through the channels.

Until she finds a talk show with celebrities.
I don't pay attention and go to the bathroom and grab my hair products and skincare.
"Hey Payson"
I walk out and go to the edge of the door between my bathroom and living area.
"Yeah?"
"I think you need to hear this"
I walk out into the living area and look at the T.V. and see Damon on there.
I sink inside and my heart beats fast.
I sit down next to Taylor and it's in the middle where he is explaining on the Court case.
Taylor told me about it yesterday that Damon had to go to court.
I listen in on the T.V.
"So Damon, what happened with Payson?"
The host asked Damon. Here it goes.
"So Payson was a fake girlfriend, I was a mess and needed to clean up my act and I admit I was a toad, I was a jerk a F-boy, I was just hurting and I'm sorry for all the girls I hurt and I know I can't go back and fix things, but I don't regret meeting Payson, she's amazing, she called me out in my crap, she was kind and looked at me like a real person, we grew each other and I told her things that I didn't tell a lot of people and I admit I was liking Payson and I even Love her"
I don't know what to think now.
Taylor looks at me and her mouth drops.
"I can't believe he said that" Taylor said and I don't answer and turn back to the T.V. and keep listening.

"Ok what about Ashley explain this"
"So I admit I did sleep with her that night Payson went to her friends and I didn't intend to but she was manipulative and you can believe what you want, but she I believe was jealous, so she made up a lie that she was pregnant and so I would have to cut it off with Payson"
"And you had a court case yesterday confirming she lied and it was her sisters pee and she's the one who is actually pregnant?"
"Yes yesterday Ashley was pleaded guilty"
"That's right there folks you herd it Ashley is not pregnant and pleaded guilty"
He paused and looked at us and continued on "so what's going on with Payson have you herd from her?"
Damon sighs and says "I have talked with her, she..... is I herd doing a project not with modeling but her passion that she shared with me and I'm so proud of her for finally getting her work out and I can't wait for you guys to find out and when it publishes guys go and support her, she is amazing women, ambitious, kind and so sweet, but we have gone our separate ways and I regret that and if we cross paths again we'll I hope I will get a second chance and I can show her what she really means to me and if not I hope the best for her and her dreams will come to life"
"That's beautiful, so Payson if your watching this, Damon loves you is what he's trying to say"
I keep starring at the T.V. and don't look at Taylor because I know she's looking at me like 'I think you need to go see him'.
"Alright when we come back Damon will be preforming his new song that's going to be on his new album"
Then commercials come on.

I stand up and Taylor follows me and I continue to pack.
"Wow that was something" she says.
"Yeah, yes it was"
"At least he's admitted he was a jerk"
"Yeah" I said.
I didn't know what to say my mind is still spinning.

Eventually Taylor called me back in and Damon was preforming his apparently new song and I knew instantly it was about us.

(Falling by Harry styles is the inspiration for this)

You can tell he is passionate about singing this but it also has emotion behind it and I want to cry but I hide it inside.

Eventually the song ends and I turn off the T.V. and walk back to my bags.

Taylor walks and said "Are you going to go back to him?" Taylor asked me while I pack my bags.
"No, it was all fake, but it felt so real" I felt a single tear come down my cheek I couldn't keep them in i guess, but I can't go back, he belongs here, I belong not in his world.
I zip up my  suitcase and go to my Uber and before I leave Taylor gives me a hug and says "you'll do great, I'm always here for you Payson, call me when you land"

"Thank Tay"
I let go and get in the car and it drive away.

Even though our relationship was fake, I will never forget how I felt even though it wasn't real, it felt so real to me and now just hearing that interview I don't know if it was really real to me, was that for the press? Or did he actually mean it. But it has to end, I can't keep thinking if he will hurt me again or if he even does love me.
So now I'm letting him have California while I go to New York, it's what's best for both of us.
I thought Damon was my new beginning but I realized those were just events leading up to this, this new beginning, but maybe not, I don't know really all I know is I won't forget Damon, I fell for him but I guess if Damon was my new beginning I would need him somehow or someway to be back in my life, but I don't know if I could handle it, but that would be proof that he was my new beginning and this is just the starting point. The ending of this chapter in my life but now starting new one. So here goes everything.

Ending is also anew beginning......