The Unexpected

Chapter 35 Damon's POV

It's been a few days and I haven't gotten ahold of Payson.
But Sasha has and also Sasha got an order for Ashley's lawyer to see if it's actually her pee and if she's really pregnant.

We haven't herd anything yet but we will find out what happens soon.

I haven't been up to do anything.
I've been laying in bed most of the day and I've even started drinking again.

"Damon, get up, take a shower we're writing"
"Carter I can't"
"Damon you have a song in there but you need to actually write it"
I turn over away from Carter.
"Let's open these blinds at first" he goes over to my window and opens them.
My eyes hurt and I cover them up.
"Damon your depressed and your drinking again, Damon I know it's hard but you need to do something"
I sit up and say "fine"
I get up and head to the bathroom and turn on the shower.
I get in and feel the hot water falling on me.
That's how I feel like I'm falling.
I'm falling again.
I can't unpack the baggage,
It just kills me and I hurt her.

What am I ?
I'm just falling again.

I get out of the shower and wrap a towel around my waist.
I go in my room and get dressed in gray sweats and a white tee shirt.
I walk out and go to my at home studio to see Carter there.
He hands me a guitar and a pen with a note book.
"Write how you feel"
I do as he said.
After I finished I give the paper to him.
"Ok now let's make this into a song"
"I think it needs to be a piano instead"
I put the guitar down and go to my piano and start playing a melody.
"I like it, now words" Carter said.
"I'm in my bed, and your not here in the house, and there's no one to blame but me and my drink in my hand"
"Forget what I said, I didn't means it, and I can't take it back or unpack the baggage"
"What am I? What am I? What if I'm someone I just don't want around, I'm falling all over again, I'm falling all over again? What if I'm someone you won't talk about?"
"Damon, that's the song"
I nod and start doing a little bit more of parts that I can think of.

Eventually Carter left and Sasha called.
"Damon, so I talked with Payson, she's back at the diner, I think you should try to talk to her"
"I've tried Sasha she just won't"
"Try again Damon, you love her"
I sigh "what really is love?"
"You know Damon because you've lived it with Payson"
"Fine I'll try"
"Tell me what happens"
"Will do so"
I hang up and get up and change into a pair of jeans and left my white tee shirt on and decided to grab my leather jacket.
I grabbed my helmet and went to the garage and went in my motorcycle.

I left and went to the diner.

Once I got there I parked and got off my bike and walked in.
I saw Payson in her uniform again.
It's like she's just back and this whole thing never happened.
I asked her boss if I can talk to Payson and the boss said yes.
I walked up to Payson behind the counter and said.
"Payson"
She looked up shocked.
"Will you please give me 5 minutes?"
"I have to work" she said so lowly
"Please Payson"
She nodded and we both walked outside.
"Payson I'm so sorry, just know none of this is you, Ashley got me drunk and I know I should've cut her off, I have been so depressed without you, your my rock, I love you Payson weather you believe me or not but Payson Ashley is not pregnant, Sasha has an order on her and her manager to see who the real pee she used was someone else's"
She nodded and let me continue
"Payson you can't be here, this isn't you"
"Damon yes it is, this is all I was and still am"
"Payson no, no matter what happens, Payson you are not the same, you still could've stayed as a model and we could've found you an apartment or even still stayed with me"
"Damon.."
"Payson I miss you , but please at least please and I mean please go to the meeting to get published, the least you can do is get your work out, your good don't loose your gift or shove it in a box Payson"
" I miss you as well but Damon I just can't and yes I got the email for it and Taylor has convinced me to go so I will be going"
"That's great Payson and I hope you get published your book is really good and it deserves to get published"
"Thank you, I should be getting back in"
I nod and thank Payson, she walks back in and I got on my bike and leave.

I'm back at my house and call Sasha to tell him.
After I go into my home studio and finish the song.
"You said you missed me to after I said it, and I've noticed now I write all of my songs about you, the coffee is out at the docks cafe, and it kills me that we've run out of things to say and that I've hurt you"

And I do the chores on my piano and then go onto the last verses

Eventually I finish the song and record it for Carter and Victoria and they say I need to put it out there for Sasha.
So I do and he said tomorrow morning we're getting into the recording studio to do it.

I make me some dinner and then head to bed knowing I got a long day ahead of me tomorrow in the studio.
I finally fall asleep thinking of Payson.
Her beautiful hair, her eyes even though there hazel, her personality and her kindness, gentleness and sweetness and how she wrote words of a love story, and now I lived it and now why does it hurt so much?
But it's so pure and amazing? How can love be hurting and amazing?