Claustrophobia

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TW: talk of suicidal thoughts, mentioning of suicide watch, mention of last chapter, fighting, yelling, make out session, mention of past non consensual touching/behaviour, Patton (surprise surprise)

Third Person POV

Janus was cuddled with Tommy. She was just staring at her arm. It was wrapped up from the incident a few days ago.

She'd talked with Emile who immediately placed her under suicide watch and a therapy session every every week, he would up that if needed.

Tommy kissed Janus' cheek. "Janny you're staring again." Janus sighed and covered her arm up with her sleeve. "I know but-" "WHY DID YOU DO THAT?!" Logan yelled from downstairs.

"IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!" Roman yelled back. "GUYS STOP YELLING!" Virgil yelled over them. Irra could be heard crying at the stairs.

Before Tommy could get up to deal with it Janus had already left.

Dealing with the stress of keeping her suicidal thoughts under check, being under watch and being a mom wasn't helping her stress levels.

She saw Logan, Roman and Virgil fighting. Remus having a panic attack, Damien about to have one and Irra crying on the steps.

Janus went downstairs. She picked up Irra and went over to Remus and Damien. She calmed the trio down and told them it was okay. Irra was giving to the pair to distract.

She went to the fighting trio. She took control of them for a minute so she could make sure the other trio were okay. When they gave Janus the okay she let them go. Making herself dizzy in the process as she can't control more than 2 people at a time, no matter how long she controls them for.

"Now what in the name of FUCK happened?! Why is the living room a mess, the tv destroyed and everyone arguing?!" Janus asked as Tommy came downstairs.

"Roman brought one of Remus' creations inside even though he wasn't supposed to!" Logan told her. "No I didn't! It followed me! It ran around and we tried to catch it." Roman argued. "Well you can't deny that it was your stupid idea to try and hit it with a bat when it was on the tv causing you to break it!" Logan snapped back.

Janus turned to Virgil. "That's what happened?" Virgil nodded. "We we're all downstairs when Roman came in and everything was set off. I was listening to music, Damien was napping, Logan reading while Remus and Irra were watching Netflix on Remus' laptop."

Janus sighed and rubbed her temples. "I-" She paused and took in a breath to stop herself from crying. She was beyond stressed. "I don't even know what to fucking do. I'm to tired for this. Tommy can deal with this- I'm.... I'm done for today." She said waving a dismissive hand before leaving.

Everyone watched with sympathy as Janus left. They all heard the familiar sound of someone choking back tears before her door opened and quickly shut.

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Janus woke up in bed. She scrambled to sit up because she fell asleep sitting on her floor. She saw Tommy next to her and sighed.

Tommy woke up when he felt Janus move. He sat up and hugged Janus. "Hey. Are you okay?" He asked. Janus shook her head and hugged back.

"I'm sorry I saddled you with that responsibility." She mumbled. Tommy pulled away and kissed her softly. "Hey. It's okay. We figured out a solution and the problem is solved." Tommy smiled softly, cupping Janus' face.

Janus leaned into his touch. "You sure?" She asked. Tommy just kissed her head. Janus smiled softly. "You're too good for me."

"Nothing is too good for you. You deserve everything wonderful in the world Janus." Tommy smiled softly. Janus chuckled and kissed him.

"I love you." Janus smiled softly. Tommy pulled Janus close and hugged her. "I love you too."

Janus and Tommy kissed again, which soon turned into a make out session. Janus rested her hands on Tommy's chest. Tommy rested his hand on her waist which unconsciously moved down to her thigh and under her dress.

His hand moved to her bare back, brushing a few scales. He rested his hands then moved to her waist and rested there. Janus started feeling uncomfortable on where his hands were but let it happen.

Tommy pulled away and carefully kissed her neck once. "Janus are you okay?" He asked. Janus nodded rather than verbally answer. "I need verbal consent Jan." He said.

"Yes. Continue." Janus said, metaphorically biting her tongue. Her eye glowed with the lie. Tommy didn't notice and continued as Janus became more uncomfortable but refusing to speak up.

After Tommy started leaving small hickeys Janus started breaking. "Pat- Patton please stop." She mumbled softly, barely audible. Tommy didn't hear and continued.

Janus started tearing up. "Patton stop please stop!" She begged again. Tommy heard her this time. He pulled away and pulled his hands away. "Jan?" He called.

Janus curled up and started crying. Tommy could feel his heart break. He pulled Janus close and whispered that she was safe.

Janus clung to him and calmed down. She muttered that she was sorry. Tommy pet her hair and told that there was nothing to apologize for. He apologized instead.

Janus fully calmed down and explained what happened and why she didn't speak up.

"Pat used to do this all the time. We make out and he takes it a step further. I didn't want to go further but he did it anyway. He was always stopped by being needed by another side for something." Janus said. "I just let it happen." She mumbled.

Tommy kissed her cheek, with her consent of course, and hugged her. "Janny you should've told me. I wouldn't have went forward with it."

Janus teared up. "Would you have listened?" She asked. "Yes! Yes of course I would have. I want to make you feel safe and happy." Tommy said immediately.

Janus smiled as no lie was said. She hugged him tightly muttering thanks. Tommy kissed her head and hugged back. "Of course. Now tell me boundaries so I can remember them for next time."

Janus nodded and cuddled close to him as she started listing things off. Tommy held her close and listened fully.

I have no shame in what I write :3

And yes Janus has been Ace from the start of the story there was no reason to mention it until now.