Claustrophobia

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TW: self harm (and scars) mention, nightmare, dream text, Patton, r@pe and attempted r@pe

Italics is Damien's dream/memory.

The memory gets kinda graphic, obviously I'm not gonna write it out but if you read it you'll understand. So I give high caution to this chapter

Please listen to this warning

Third Person POV

This week had been nice, Janus could tell you. She saw the efforts that the sides were putting in to make her feel better. Though she will admit that she has no idea what arbitrary guidelines they are all following or who made them, but loved the effort none the less.

But like all good things, they must come to an end. Janus hates the way it ended.

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Janus was laying in bed cuddled to a pillow. She'd just had a nightmare because of him from their relationship and was trying to calm down.

There was a knock on her door and she called for them to come in. Damien slipped into the room with a small hello and shut the door.

Janus sat up. "Hey Dammy. Something wrong?" Damien sighed and nodded as they went over and sat next to Janus.

"I wanted to talk to you about something serious." They started. "I noticed the long baggy sweaters lately. You never wear those unless you're sick or freezing. I wanna know if you're okay. I also saw bandages. We are here to help and I know you didn't ask for it but some people need a hand extended out first." They told Janus.

Janus went noticeably pale. "Jan?" Damien called. "Yeah I was hoping no one noticed." She sighed rolling up her sleeves. Damien hugged Janus tightly and was hugged back.

Janus kissed Damien's head. "Will you tell anybody?" She asked. They shook their head. "Not unless you say something first."

Janus smiled softly and teared up. "Thank you." "Of course mom. You aren't alone." They said as the pair pulled away from the hug. "Even in the mind palace you aren't alone with this problem." They mumbled.

Janus caught that. "What do you mean?" She asked. Damien sighed. "It's only fair." They took off their sweater as Janus saw the scars littered across their front. "Awe Dammy." Janus said softly.

Damien sighed. "I practically marked everywhere he touched." They mumbled as they put in their sweater. "You aren't mad are you?" They asked.

Janus shook her head and pulled Damien onto her lap for a hug. "Of course not." She said kissed their head. "How about we just stay here and sleep for a while. Then watch a movie?" She offered. Damien nodded and leaned into the hug.

"Thank you mom." They mumbled. Janus pet their hair. "Of course."

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Patton laughed and kissed their neck. "That was fun and all but you have 5 minutes to get out." He said before going into the bathroom to shower.

Damien was shaking violently as they got dressed and sunk to their tower.

The dream skipped to a few days later in a flash of white light.

Damien was in their bunker when Patton came over. They immediately pulled out a sword and pointed it at Patton.

He chuckled and pushed the sword down, Damien was shaking and frozen in fear. Patton walked over and pinned them to the wall.

"Get out." Damien hissed, trying to calm down. Patton just chuckled and kissed them. Damien tried pushing Patton off but their hands were pinned above them.

Patton pulled away. "I want a round two and I will get a round two." He said before moved the dragon to the bed and pinning them down.

"Patton! Get off! I don't want too! Please don't." They teared up. Patton didn't listen and just started undressing their top.

He kissed their chest and was about to go further when he felt someone trying to summon him. He got off and fixed himself. "Keep quiet about this for me." He smirked before leaving. Damien broke down.

There was another flash of a white light and Damien was in the darks living room.

Damien sighed and took a breath. Trying to convince them self that this is a new dream. Of course they were wrong.

Patton rose up behind them and slid his hands up Damien's shirt. They removed his hands and turned around. "Do-Don't fucking touch me." They stuttered.

Patton pulled Damien to him. "Not listening to what you say." "REM-" Damien tried calling for Remus but had their mouth covered and was sunken out.

Remus came downstairs to see who called him. He saw no one in the living room and went back to his room.

Damien was pushed onto Patton's bed and pinned there. They started breathing hard falling into a panic attack.

Patton didn't care. He started touching them as they tried to calm down.

Damien eventually calmed down, not like Patton cared. He kissed and left hickeys on their neck and chest. They cried out for him to stop.

Patton was stopped when Logan called for him.

When Patton was executed he had it once with 4 attempts.
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Damien sat up and screamed. They hugged themselves tightly and started breaking down.

Janus woke up from the screaming and look at Damien. Janus sat in front of them and started calming them down.

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Damien eventually calmed down and was now cuddled in Janus' arms.

Janus pet their hair and held them close. "I'm gonna bring you to Em tomorrow. We need to fix this." Damien nodded and clung to Janus.

"You aren't going anywhere. I promise." Janus mumbled.

((okay this one I feel bad for