Love And War Season 1

Chapter 48

-GUGULEZWE

I'm an idiot! You ever be with someone but it feels like you cheating on the person you in love with? Its awkward between Sebe and I and I feel like I make things even more awkward by pressing my phone in her presence. Honestly I'm just googling ideas for the perfect first date. I enjoy seeing cuddles happy and I want to be the reason she smiles but I don't know how to go about it. Sebe is not Mbali. Sebe is a simple person who prefers simple things but unlike Mbali she's not that picky and I'm afraid she's not one to speak out if she doesn't like something but instead she'll appreciate your efforts. I like that but how do I go about making her step out of her shell without making her uncomfortable? I consider walking back to my res but I think to myself, screw this and literally run to the elevator before it closes. We're alone and she's shocked to see me

"Are you Ok?"

She asks with concern, I shake my head.

"What's wrong?"

I'm watching her lips as she speaks. I pull her to me and kiss her, she let's me kiss her. I deepen it making it hard to catch our breaths, I shove my tongue inside her mouth and she allows me. It feels good, it feels right but she breaks it. I look at her and she stares back trying to catch her breath

"What was that for?"

She asks surprised, I shrug

"I've been wanting to do that since earlier on Cuddles. You look beautiful, hot, sexy"

I compliment. She really is beautiful and looks different than her usual self

"Uhhhmm, thank you"

I say unsure of my response. The elevator comes to a stop and she gets off, I follow behind her

"Is everything OK?"

She asks

"Cuddles I'm sorry"

She stops, we in the passage of her floor

"Please let me finish. No relationship should start the way ours is starting. Our lives shouldn't be dictated by forces we don't know and it was unfair of me to force you into a decision so quickly and wrong of me to try this out for all the wrong reasons"

I sigh, she's looking at me full blown shock

"If we going to do this, I want us to do it right. Go on dates, get to know each other from scratch without the forces and dreams and whatever. Cuddles I want to love you right, the way you deserve to be loved and the way you want to be loved. I'm willing to put in all the work for us a.."

She shuts me up with a kiss. She breaks it

"Let's have this conversation inside, Ok?"

I nod like a lost puppy and follow behind her.

"Gugu I understand you scared, so am I. Its not easy loving someone who doesn't feel the same about you"

I shake my head at her

"Please let me finish. I'm willing to meet you half way and I will also try my best to get you to fall in love with me at your own free will. We've both been hurt for our stubbornness so if we doing this, we need to do it right. Church and prayer"

I chuckle and scratch my head, she smiles. She's so cute. How could I have been so blind?

"Ok. Church and prayer it is then"

She giggles

"Can I offer you something to eat or drink?"

I shrug