Sinner | Draco Malfoy

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euphoria, the experience of pleasure, excitement, or happiness. all of those experiences come from your happy city, here you are, laying on your bed, the quiet consumed the room, Pansy was never here anymore, on certain occasions when herself and Theodore was in a midst of an argument she would come home, but other than that, Pansy was never here, and you were all alone to deal with the thoughts in your head, the aggravating thoughts.

your mind wandered over your city, the city of bliss. you imagined yourself in a white flowing dress as the wind blew against your skin, pushing your hair back as the wind's breeze was warm, the floor a beautiful white and gold marble, the walls were white filled with gold wall panels, a beautiful piano sat in the middle of the castle, you strode over the piano, your fingers lightly brushing the instrument, a melodic tone boosted from the piano, and you hummed in consent, how can you ever leave this place? it was everything you could ever ask for, you roamed around the castle you longed to be in for the rest of your life, paying attention to the decoration and the accents of the home, picture frames, and real plants stood beautifully around the house, standing out in every which way possible, chandeliers bringing beautiful light into the castle.

it was huge, but you were alone. even in your city you were alone, and it was hard to bare, how long can you be alone? your fingers skimmed across the walls as you walked down the corridor, finding yourself into a bedroom, you saw a figure of a male standing on the bed, a low chuckle erupted from his throat, "I've been waiting for you to find me." His voice was awfully familiar, you could almost make it out, your eyes met with his. icy grey eyes filled with mischief, malice, but yet so soft at the same time.

"Now that I've found you, what did you want from me?" You hummed, making your way to the soft bed, "you didn't get to me just yet darling." He whispered soothingly, his hands coming to grip your wrist softly. "You need to find me in your real reality, darling." His eyes bore into yours, and you could've melt at this moment, he stared into your soul searching for some type of emotion. a feeling.

"And why do I need to find you?" You questioned, trying to move your wrist from his grip, but instead he laced his fingers with yours. "Because I can give you this, I can give you the lifestyle you want y/n, not just when you are high." He had a smile on his face, a smile that was laced with sincerity, he looked ethereal as if he belonged in a garden filled with green grass, roses growing beautifully into the ground, the fresh thorns ready to cut your skin, ruining the beauty of the roses, but making you fear.

but on the other side of the garden belonged to fresh white flowers, the delicate flowers representing purity and innocence, Draco was confident, he was strong. he was brave, cunning. but at the end of the day Draco's petals needed to be watered, otherwise draco will slowly start the processing of breaking. Draco was a rose, beautiful on the outside, a beautiful aroma that made you feel home, but on the inside, thorns that can cut into your skin, and fill you with infectious material, that infectious material would be a heart break. you were not strong enough.

"What do I need to do, draco?" Your voice was quieter than usual, you were loud, sarcastic. but you wanted to live in that garden with the ethereal man. but he didn't exist, the Draco here didn't exist in your life, only in your happy city. His hands cupped your face, this thumb gently rubbing against your cheek. he looked focused, comforting, he felt like a home you never knew you had.

"look for me in the depths of your heart, you carry a locket around your heart, y/n. I've noticed that, you need to search for the key that will release you from this, and bring you home to me." Draco's lips formed into a smile, as he pressed a kiss to your forehead.

you didn't realize that you were asleep until you woke up, you woke up with a gasp, drenched with sweat on your forehead, "look for me in the depths of your heart?" You mumbled to yourself, what could that even mean. why was Draco haunting you in your city now. That was your city, not to share with anyone.

it was late, way past curfew you definitely missed dinner, and you were not allowed to roam the halls of Hogwarts, so you were alone in the common room, staring at the bright flames that erupts from the fireplace, you wished you had a cup of tea, or coffee. your mind needed to relax, your thoughts were stuck on the words, look for me in the depths of your heart, and that your heart had a locket, and You needed to find the key, what key what locket?

you needed more information from him, you needed to get high again. you needed to speak to the Draco who shared your world, you found yourself knocking on Draco's door, he hastily opened the door, eyes wide, shirtless, and sweaty. "oh it's you." He mumbled nervously, walking out in the hallway, not allowing you to enter into his dorm room. "Yes it's me, I need supplies draco." You sighed.

"Okay but you need to give me at least twenty minutes and I'll bring them to you okay? go back to your dorm." Draco was nervous, and he was never like this, "I need them now." You mumbled, opening the door to his room, on his bed laid a whining Pansy, sprawled out onto his bed, with just a shirt on. "Y/n, I can explain." Draco groaned out, and you couldn't help but to laugh. "Explain what, give me what I want so I can leave, we are not together draco," and he nodded, using his nonverbal spell to appear his stash of medication, he handed you the contents and shoo'd you away. "I have to pa-"

"Go away I said it's free." He pushed you out of the room; and for some reason your heart did seem to hurt a tiny bit, Pansy is dating Theo? but yet the man who confessed that he liked you now suddenly is in bed with Pansy, confusing. but you had to push that aside, you needed to get back to your city.

You swallowed the two blue pills, allowing yourself to lay down. you steadied your breathing, allowing your mind to completely adjust to the high you are about to feel, getting rid of all negative thoughts, you felt the numbness enter into your legs, your fingers twitched, and ywere now completely wrecked.

just the way you liked it, you closed your eyes, allowing the high to succumbed your whole body, and release you to your world, your euphoria. bright white flashes crossed your eyes as you entered your safe haven, you hastily rushed the rooms into the castle, searching for him. you called out his name, no answer, he was nowhere, until you remembered.

Look for me in the depths of your heart.

you needed to desire him for him to show up. "Draco, I need you." You mumbled, walking into the only room left into the castle, he was there a smirk formed on his lips. "You cracked the code, darling." He laughed, a laugh that will stick with you forever.

"You need to desire me, and I will come to you."