I Will Be Here [JENLISA]

EPILOGUE

Have you ever find yourself banging in the darkness trying to get out?

Kasi ako noon kung nasasaktan lang ako eh. Ngayon. Im completely locked up in this darkness.

Is this the end? I wanted to say no. Dahil hindi ko pa nakakamit ang mga pangarap ko. Hindi ko pa nahahanap ang babaeng minahal ko.

:Bakit kaba nagtatago?

"Natatakot parin ako" sagot ko

:Saan kaba natatakot?

"Sa mangyayari."

: Fix yourself then fix everything. Nandito lang ako. Mahal ka namin

She said then walked away.

I could feel the cold wind touching my skin but cant even look at it.

Andaming tao sa mundo. Bakit ako pa. Minsan lang ako sasaya ng ganito. Minsan lang ako nakaramdam ng ganito. Minsan lang ako ngumiti. Minsan ko lang matitigan ang ngiting binigay ko sa taong pinakamamahal ko.

"Bakit naman ganon" sabi ko sa sarili ko habang umiiyak.

"Kung sainyo lang naman ang bagsak ko. Wag nyo ng patagalin. Ayokong may magdusa" sabi ko sa utak ko habang nakatingin sa kataastaasan.

ramdam ko parin ang iyak mo. Ang mga luhang pumapatak sa balikat ko habang niyayakap kita at sasabihin ko sayong magiging okay ang lahat.

Ramdam ko parin ang init ng iyong yakap at halik habang tayoy sumasayaw sa gitna ng ulan . Sinasabi ng puso na parang walang pakealam sa mundo.

*FLASHBACK*

I was cooking when i felt someone was backhugging me.

"Woah, what's with you this morning?" I asked the girl behind me.

"I just love you" She sweetly answered.

"What if Something happened between us? Paano kung may humadlang?" She asked

I took a sigh before slowly facing her then say " If that ever happens. Si tadhana na ang bahala. Kung makalimot man ang utak." I paused

"Hindi naman nakakalimot to" I said as i pointed my heart.

"Sayo lang to tumitibok ng ganito. Mahal ko" I said then she looked me with her puppy mandu eyes.

"Kung wala kang tinupad sa sinabi mo. Sana kunin kana ni lord"she said then hugged me.

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*AT THE PARK*

"Last month na ng seniorhigh, No changed of plans?" She asked me.

"Nope. Unti unti ko ng nakakamit ang pangarap kong makapagtapos ng aral. Sunod naman ay ang makilala ang babaeng nakatakda sakin." I paused.

"Kaya nung nakilala kita, nangarap ulit ako na. Hanggang dulo. Hinding hindi ako haharap sa altar, na hindi ikaw ang kasama ko" i said while watching the sun.

"Ako? Hindi mo ba ako tatanungin?" She asked when she made me look at her.

"Bakit? May plano kana?" I asked her.

"Wala. As long as im with you. Wala nakong hihilingin pa" She said then kissed me.

*END OF FLASHBACK*

"Kaya pala balik ka ng balik sa park." I smirked looking from nowhere while remembering those flashback while my tears are pouring down my cheeks.

You gave me hope. But it's not just hope, light and new beginnings. Sometimes, sceneries that will melt every person's heart are the beautiful picture of genuine unity.

I remember how u say "during calamities, you shouldnt think on how to survive alone, but start thinking on how to survive with a lot of people".

But seeing those people around me with their glittering eyes full of mix emotions, fear, courage,cheering me up, sadness, pain and even cover up happiness was like a rope that i'll encourage me to hold on tightly.

"All this time. You we're right" I said while sniffing.

Unfortunately all stories, may it be a love story, bed time story. Or just a simple short story. It always has one thing in common. Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko.

Bakit ba ikaw lang palagi ang nakikita ko? Everytime i close my eyes. You come alive.

We're just childhood friends. Who just meet again. Talk about the places we've been. Then become sweethearts. Who fell apart somewhere along ago.

Maghihintay at maghihintay parin ako. I'll wait for you to come home here with me.

"Youre just a rainbow. But im color blind" I said then slowly close my eyes.