His Lost Sister

Sense

Kaneki's POV

This is all a joke.

A sick cynical joke.

I know my sister she can't be dead....

SHE CAN'T!

My breath became intense and my heart beat is beating as if I ran for my life.

I ran through the dark night as mist and fog began to submerge from the darkness. The street lights became small glowing orbs, my vision was blinded by the fog, and the night was silent.

I look to the fountain in front of my eyes, a reminder of where my life became a disaster.

A moment...

A place...

The hateful aura...

This is where every nightmare and terror began. Kenya's disappearance, my pain, and my strong regret and guilt. Every blame, sadness, and anger is all my fault. I'm the only one to blame here. It's not my parents, my sister, or my friends; it's all my damn fuckin fault.

"AAAAGGGGHHHHHH!"

I scream to the sky, every pain and sorrow I feel at this moment.

"WHY?! WHY?!! WHY?!!!"

My body landed on the ground as tears rolled down my face. "WHY?!!! WHY ME?!!! I DON'T DESERVE THIS!"

I was on my knees and forearms asking and pleading anyone who can hear my screams. I start to punch the ground with every ounce of pain and anger I have. My knuckles began to bleed as my screams became more louder than ever.

"TAKE ME! TAKE ME INSTEAD! PLEASE!" My tears were flowing like rivers that can't be stopped. Why is it always that the ones I love the most are always taken from me. What did I do to even be part of this cruel world.

"PLEASE! GIVE MY SISTER BACK!"

No one will hear you.

"Please....anyone....give my sister back..."

I don't want to be a ghoul.

I don't want to be just half human.

I want to be human again.

"All my dreams and goals, my life...they're all gone."

I want to be happy with my sister and friends once more.

"Please, don't be dead....PLEASE!"

My silent crying was the only loudest sounds anyone would hear.

I'm only to blame here, my mistakes and decisions are my own consequences to live with. I only wish I had made better decisions, not only for myself but for my family and friends.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

My voice became low and soft, no one will hear my cries and agony. I will also be alone wherever I go.

"My sweet Kaneki, why do you cry?"

Rize.

"Stay here forever...stay with me...Kaneki...."

No. I refuse this, I refuse it all.

"You'll forget every pain and sorrow you feel. Don't you want to feel free again? What about your sister, don't you want to finally rest her soul."

Kenya.

"She's not dead."  I know she's alive. My emotions, my senses, my entire life know she's alive and well.