-maybe in another lifetime- {dreamnotfound}

{𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒆𝒕𝒆𝒆𝒏}

tw:mentions of suicide and self harm
i would but a start and an end but the whole chapter is based around it soo just be cautious.
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and whilst everyone else is spending new years with their loved ones.

george was sitting on the edge of a cliff without the man he met under the stars.

he never even got to say goodbye.

or i love you.

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"george. GEORGE! wake up, it's 7pm."

"sapnap, where is he?!"
george said with panic in his voice.

"who?"

"dream!!"

"george.. not this again."
"he killed himself 2 weeks ago. you saw it as well. what are you talking about?"

"i had another dream didn't i."

"i think so."

"what happened in it?"

"basically how me and dream met. how we fell in love. and then him leaving.

he left a voicemail when he left.

it said almost exactly what it said in his suicide note.

basically just the story of us.
but in real time.
he jumped off the cliff.
not left it."

"i'm really sorry george."

"is he ever going to come back sapnap."
george's voice cracked.

"he is dead george. so no. not in this lifetime anyway."

george knew it.
but still hearing it made him burst out into tears.

sapnap wanted to give him a hug.
but he couldn't.
george wouldn't let him.

george wouldn't let anyone touch him.
dream ruined that.

dream was the only person who was allowed to touch him but he left as well.

he god damn left me after promising he wouldn't.

just the thought made george bang his head hardly on him headboard.

"oh george.. don't do that."

"please could you leave, i don't want to end up shouting at you for something that wasn't your fault."

"yeah of course george."

truth be told that george was more angry than upset.

probably because it hasn't hit him that he was gone just yet.

but it will soon.

he had lost all trust.
cut himself off from everyone besides bad and sapnap.
stopped streaming.
hid his phone somewhere.
stopped eating.
slept all the time.

he really had gone to a low point.

he really did love dream as well, more than he could ever love someone else.