A twilight Fanfiction: 𝓢𝓲𝓵𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓜𝓸𝓸𝓷

Chapter 5

The silence was painful. I wanted to peel my skin off to just as a distraction. That's when the sound of Edwards phone buzzing rang through the stillness of the car. He looked at it, his eyes wandering the screen and froze. I saw every muscle in his body tense. A vein in his neck started to appear and his eyebrows furrowed deeply. He looked back at the road and pressed his foot harder on the gas pedal. I gulped, more curious than ever about what was happening. We drove so fast I could barely see the trees passing by. His fists tighten so hard on the steering wheel his knuckles turned whiter then they usually are. His Adam's apple bobbed. I wanted to ask what he saw but I decided against it. I didn't want to hear his voice anyways. Suddenly we came to a sudden stop in front of Bella's house. Bella's house? Edward ran out of the car to god knows where. I couldn't miss whatever was going down, I grabbed my crutches and quickly got out of the car, hoping to not injure myself anymore.

"Don't you ever touch her against her will again!" I heard Edward yell. The tension between them was so high. Something was about to happen. They were up in each other's faces to the point where I was sure one of them would bite the other.

"Stop!" Bella yelled trying to pull them apart.

"She's not sure what she wants," Jacob replied. I was too focused on getting to the boys to even notice what they were saying or what happened.

"Guys stop!" Bella said again but nothing could get them to calm down now.

"Let me give you a clue. Wait for her to say the words," Edward said to Jacob. Jacob whispered something that I couldn't here to Edward.

"Jacob just go okay!" Bella said trying with all her might to push them away.

"Oi!" I yelled at them. That somehow got them to stop looking at each other like meals. The two turned towards me as I finally arrived in the crutches.

"You idiots are making a scene," I scolded but Jacob seemed distracted.

"You're okay," his voice sounded relieved. The door to Bella's house swung open and a worried Charlie came running down the steps. I've met Charlie a couple times, we've never spoken privately before though. He just thinks I'm Edwards sister.

"Let's take it down a notch," Charlie said, parting the two. "What's going on here?" He asked, looking between them curiously.

"Yeah I've been meaning to ask the same thing," I added. There was silence. Nothing but the sound of crickets were heard in the night.

"I," Jacob started hesitantly. "I kissed Bella," he said. My heart sank to the pits of my stomach. "And then she broke her hand," he said. I looked at Bella cradling her wrist. "Punching my faces," he added. Charlie looked between the three, dumbfounded. I on the other hand was upset. I didn't know why but my stomach was doing back flips and heart ached. Why did this hurt. Why did this hurt so much. It's not like I liked Jacob. Right? He was the only one that made me happy, we had a connection I've never had with anyone and he was giving me a reason to live. But all that disappeared. Then it hit me so suddenly. Even though I knew it in the back of my head. I did like him. His cockiness, his jokes, his strength, his pride, his compassion. All of it. But just like Edward, he's in love with Bella. Bella.

"Total misunderstand," Jacob tried to lighten the situation. He looked at me, almost shameful. I couldn't find the words. Even if I did I wasn't sure I wanted to say them in front of everyone else. So all I could do was scoff. Before anyone could say anything I walked to the car. Once I stepped inside I felt stupid. It's not like we were dating. I had no right to get upset at this. Nor did I have a right to get upset at Edward. I just had to hide it. Like always.

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The next day I went out to my balcony and stood there where the cold hit me. I always stood there when I didn't know what else to do. Whatever freedom or happiness Jacob gave to me was gone now. I felt guilty for being upset about this but it was nothing I could control. He hasn't messaged me once so I figured he had nothing to say. What would he say anyways. I knew Jacob liked Bella. If I had known I had feelings for him I wouldn't have gotten involved in the first place. I sighed loud, the wind carrying it away.