SINFULLY INLOVE. chenji

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Trigger Warning!: self-harm

"you don't have to worry, it's normal." jisung said, chenle kept on wiping the younger's face with a wet towel. "are you okay? are you feeling anything? tell me." he can't help but act like this, it's like his first time seeing someone's nose bleeding in real life because he was raised in a wealthy family, his family will immediately call a doctor or will bring him to the hospital even if it's just a small stomachache or even a small wound because his family is too sensitive and he hates it. he doesn't want to live a fancy life, he wants to live a simple life. "my mom told me that if your nose bleeds, there's vein popped inside your nose–"

"well, that's a lie, and are you even listening to your science class?"

"then, what's the cause of nose bleeding?" chenle asked, his whole life is a lie. he can't believe that his mom lied to him.

"the lining of your nose contains many tiny blood vessels that lie close to the surface and are easily irritated. the two most common causes of nosebleeds are dry air and nose picking, but maybe you're also right, i mean my mom used to tell me the same thing." he explained, he chuckled softly because he saw chenle clapping his hands, looking so amazed. but why did his nose bleeds? maybe because chenle kissed him and his surrounding became really hot.

"i didn't know you're that smart, wow! i didn't know that. thank you for telling me." he chuckled as he stopped clapping, he continue to tap jisung's face with a wet towel, "but are you sure you're okay?" the smaller asked, jisung nodded.

"are you hungry?" the younger asked, "nope—" chenle answered but he was cut off by a loud growl coming from his stomach. "maybe i am." he then let out a small chuckle. "what do you want? i will cook it for you." jisung said as he stood up, smiling widely while looking down at chenle. "are you sure you can cook? you look like you don't." the older teased, jisung gave him a look, "of course i can! I'm good at cooking and I lived alone since I was fifteen, cooking is easy as counting from one to ten." but chenle grins and teased him more, "the food that you cook taste like charcoal."

"stop pretending, I know you like it." the younger smirks. chenle looked away, hiding his blushing face. "I'm serious, i don't like the food." he whispered but the taller heard him, "i saw your eyes shining while looking at the food that I cooked," he said after going out of the room. while going downstairs, he heard the other yell "fine, you win!". he chuckled and went to the kitchen. while doing his work, he can't help but smile. he can imagine his future with chenle, waking up in the morning, cuddling, teasing each other about this and that, cooking each other's favorite food, taking a bath together—

but he remembered that they're just friends, and chenle only sees him as a friend. he felt a stinging pain in his chest but he just ignored it.

his plan is to make chenle love him back, but what if he can't? what if he can't make the older love him back, what if he fails?

he feels that chenle only agreed to be friends with him because he's lonely and he needs someone's company, but once he's completely fine and happy, chenle will leave him. jisung let out a long sigh, he realized that the older is rejecting his affection— "no, jisung. he's rejecting your affection because he's uncomfortable with you because you're a creep." he said to himself, it was supposed to be a whisper but he said it out loud, and no one heard him, right?