SINFULLY INLOVE. chenji

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jisung sat on a bench under the small three. the field is quiet, he looked around and saw no one. he likes being alone, he enjoys the silence. he took out his book and started reading.

that's jisung, being alone is his favorite. he doesn't have anyone to talk with. his family? well, they abandoned jisung at the age of fifteen. why? because his parents doesn't want him. 'why did they even made me in the first place if they don't want a child?' jisung thought.

his life was too dark.

but...

someone brings colors in his life. a boy with a soft and kind heart, handsome face, cute smile, and a manly voice.

and that boy is zhong chenle, his crush.

chenle is a big gift for jisung, and he's very thankful. he's thankful that the older came into his life. every time he looks at the older, he feels butterflies inside his stomach, the way his cheeks gets red after seeing the older smile so cutely, and how he gets sad when he saw chenle was sulking or frowning.

chenle is more than perfect.

but sadly, chenle is straight, and jisung wasn't. and it's too impossible that the older will notice him, he's just a lonely depressed kid that no one will ever notice.

but it's okay.

he can still smile, he's not that weak. even if chenle will never notice him, he doesn't care.

it's okay to be sad.

jisung sighed as he closed the book, some seconds later, he heard a group of people laughing, he looked up and saw chenle with his friends.

he gulped as he can feel his cheeks getting hotter.

"why are they here at this time?" he whispered to himself, he saw one of chenle's friends holding a ball. they're probably here to play basketball. yep. chenle likes playing basketball, jisung remembered secretly watching the older practice at the gym alone. he also remembered how his nose bleeds because he saw the older took off his shirt.

after an hour of playing, he sat down on the bleachers while drinking his bottled water, sweat dripping from his forehead as he gulped water like a mad man. it's already 6 pm and it's already getting dark, but he doesn't care. he wanted to do more practice.

"we'll be going now chenle, see you tomorrow! bye!"

he waved his hands back at his friends, "bye."

he sighs, being alone sucks.

he took out his phone and decided to watch some random videos, but that doesn't help, he was still bored. he wants someone's accompany.

but to be honest, he doesn't have friends, that guy earlier was just using him and he knows it. they're all just using him for money, no one really loved him. his parents are in china and he lives alone. his parents only send money to his bank account, but he never received a message from his parents, maybe.. just maybe they're busy.

he believed that no one loves him.

but he doesn't know about this certain guy who's admiring him for a very long time.

he shrugs it off and continued to watch some random videos.

he doesn't even realize that it's almost 7 pm, but he doesn't care and continues to watch some videos, not until his phone ringed and noticed that his cousin is calling, so he quickly answered it.

"hello?"

"oh, hi chenle! me and donghyck are going to the cinema. wanna come with us?" it's renjun, he can feel that the older is excited.

"uh.. sorry ge, but I can't. I still have some things to do. I'm sorry." he replied with a sad tone, he doesn't want to disappoint his ge, but he really can't join them. "maybe... next time. I promise I'll come!"

"oh... it's okay tho. and don't be sorry! it's really okay. just call us when you need me and donghyuck okay?"

"okay.. I'll hang up now. enjoy the movie ge! take care!"

"okay you too! take care alright. bye bye!!" renjun said before ending the call.

chenle sighs. renjun and donghyuck are the only people he can trust. they are not fake like others, they're always there when you need them, they will support you at everything and they will be always by your side when you need them. and that's what he's thankful for.

he stood up and packed his things, after that, he plugged his earphones and played his playlist on shuffle, he hung his bag on his shoulder as he began to walk slowly.

but he didn't know that someone is following him.

jisung followed chenle, but of course, the other didn't know. he didn't make a sound and he just walks slowly. he didn't know why but he wanted to follow chenle without a reason.

while following the older, he admired chenle. the way his fluffy hair bounce, his sharp eyes, his cold gaze, his cheekbones, his soft and plumpy lips- everything about him is perfect.

he suddenly feels his cheeks getting hot again, he smiled... when will chenle notice him?

"when will you notice me?" jisung mumbled under his breath.

T B C.