I can't lose you again

Chapter 18

Newt's POV

I woke up to a sleeping Y/N. I laid there with her on my chest. I watched her as I admired her beauty. It was moments like this that I missed. I would miss the simple things like the way the sun hit the glade at the perfect moment when it rises. Like the wave of happiness and relief I felt when Y/N would run though the maze doors with Minho. The same bloody faces on the greenies when they would come up in the box.

I was snapped out of my thoughts when I felt Y/N move on my chest. She groaned as she rolled on top of me so she could look at me.
"Well good morning" she said in her groggy morning voice.
"Good morning sleepyhead" I said making her face light up. I chuckled at her reaction. I looked into her eyes as I placed my hand onto her cheek. I gently brushed my thumb over her soft cherry lips and pressed mine against hers. She didn't hesitate to kiss me back. Our lips moved in perfect harmony as the soft light of the morning sun hit our faces. I felt her run her tongue along my bottom lip begging for me to let her in. I smirked at her actions and parted me lips, allowing her to slip in. I slowly ran my fingers through her hair and placed my hands on her waist. In one swift motion I picked her up and flipped her over so I was on top. I started to leave a trail of kisses down her neck. Making shaky breaths leave her lips as an attempt to not moan. I started to gently suck and nibble at her soft skin. A quite moan escaped her lips so only I could hear. I grinned against her neck as I began to kiss down her chest, more moans leaving her lips. I stopped kissing her and looked down at the gorgeous girl who laid underneath me. I smiled at her as she looked up at me. God she was so perfect. I reached down and pecked her lips before getting off of her and pulling her into a tight hug.

It didn't take long before everyone else started to wake up. We all had beans for breakfast, since that was the only thing we had. But it was better than nothing I guess. After and hour or so we decided to pack up and get moving again. Only this time we had to walk through a massive sandstorm. It was horrible and I felt so bad for Winston. He was badly hurt and he didn't look like he was getting better. Most of the time he was laid in the stretcher but made us let him walk.
"Guys can we find some shelter?" Frypan asked.
"Yeha I was thinking the same thing" Winston said making everyone look at him.

Y/N POV

It's been a few hours since the storm began and we found a small place to rest whilst it passed. We've been sat down watching Winston get worse, and it's breaking me. I've know him for as long as I can remember, and these though keep racing through my mind. That it my fault Chuck died and that Winston got hurt. If I didn't leave him to shoot the cranks alone maybe he wouldn't have been hurt. Maybe if we didn't go get water Chuck would be alive. I began to start thinking that maybe that I was the problem. I was the one who made the decisions. I was the one who couldn't save them. It was all my fault.

"Are you alright love?" I heard Newts voice from next to me. I looked at him for a few seconds because I knew that if I opened my mouth to speak I would cry.
"Yup" I said, turning my head to look out onto the endless miles of sand. I felt him place his hand on top of mine. He gently squeezed it making me look at him. We didn't say anything as we looked into each other's eyes. I wanted to tell him how I felt. That I have been physically sick due to Chucks absence, a shiver ran down my spine at the thought of him. I didn't have the heart to tell Newt that I feel so emotionally drained and that this morning when I woke up I was still tired. I wanted too but I couldn't even find the words to begin to describe how I felt. I felt my eyes begin to gloss over. Then I felt his hand touch my cheek making a single tear run down it. I closed my eyes as he carefully wiped it away. When I opened them I again I saw him smile at me. I felt safe as he slowly pulled me into his chest, I wrapped my arms around him.
"It'll be ok darling" he spoke softly into my hair. I didn't answer. "I will be here for you, I will always be here for you" he whispered into my ear. I smiled into his chest.