Finally Special

Despair

Aisha's POV

To be blunt, I don't know how much longer I can live like this. It's been a month. A MONTH. When the dark circle arrived, not only did I feel my own pain, but also that of all the members of the circle. It was so much worse for me. When I regained consciousness all I saw was Will.

FLASHBACK

Slowly my eyes flicker open and I squint trying to deceipher what I am seeing here. All I can see are colours and pictures. Nothing is in the right place. Blinking, the image begins to clear though I can still see faint lines of colour. Finally I am able to see Will, sleeping in his chair. Closing my eyes, I think back to my last memory. I remember telling them how wrong Harry was. Then the circle.. startled my eyes shoot open. THE CIRCLE. Looking at Will I try to reach him, but realise I've been tied down. Instead I call to him.

"Will." I say, but he only stirs. "Will!" Muttering, he flails around before slowly rubbing his eyes. Blinking he looks at me before his eyes widen.

"You're awake!" he states, to which I nod my head. We stare at each other. Something is wrong.

"Umm.." he starts to say before I interrupt him.

"Can you untie me?" I ask.

"Oh, right!" he says, jumping up and removing the rope. Cautiously I sit up. For some reason I feel utterly drained. Will sits next to me and I lean my head against his shoulder.

"Where is everyone?" I mumble. I'm surprised to feel him tense up.

"Uhh.." he stammers. I roll my head round and look up at him. He is studiously looking at the ceiling.

"Will?" I question again. He slumps and turns to look at me. I gape at him surprised to see tears swimming in his eyes.

"I don't know." he whispers.

"What?"

"I DON'T KNOW! One minute they were here, then you all collapsed, then the boys fucking disappeared! They walked out the door and LEFT!" Chest heaving, Will stares at me like I have the answers. Why does everyone look at me like that? I don't know anything. 

"I'm sorry." I mutter hanging my head. What more is there left to say? Will just nods his head at me. 

FLASHBACK OVER

From then on it has been as though the rest of the circle has been either ignoring or avoiding me. Harry and Louis seem so caught up in each other, they never spend time around us anymore. Chelsea, Kate and Neelam snub me. Sophie has become caught up in many clubs, never being around and it is as though she has moved away. Niall and Zayn don't spend time with us, and I only ever manage to catch a glimpse of a tail. I know that Niall dislikes all the negative emotions that are around, but it still feels like abandonment to me. Emma just doesn't know what to do. I catch her looking at me now and then, and she often offers me a smile, but what will a smile do. Christina obviously doesn't know how to feel. Liam on the other hand doesn't have any qualms about showing that he doesn't like the way I did anything. He glares at me often and mutters things about me, so I suppose that is why Christina is so confused about everything. We have been sitting together, but I am often wrapped in my own world, and none of them seem to care that I'm this way. 

A sudden hand appearing in my field of vision breaks my thoughts. I've been scrunched up in a small ball on the floor, listening to music. Looking up I see Will, hand outstretched to me. Carefully I unfold myself and allow my fragile body to be pulled up. 

"When did you last eat?" he asks, trying to peer at my face which is covered in my hair. I just shrug my shoulders. Tugging my hand out of his, I wrap my arms around myself, grasping on to my elbows. I know my body has slightly curled in on itself.