Finns POV:
(Starts back in the drop ship in 2x08 after Finn says goodbye to Clarke and Raven)
Ps the slanted words are his thoughts or mind speaking to him
Thoughts race through my head as I make my way out of the bottom of the drop ship past the surrounding walls. I deserve to die for what I've done. I can't let anyone else get hurt because of me, especially not Clarke. Clarke, the thought of her blonde hair as she always has it, half up and resting perfectly down her shoulders, is enough to fill my heart with joy and was enough for me to make my decision, I will die tonight, for the alliance, for justice, for Clarke. God knows I deserve to die and I never deserved Clarke. I need to see her one last time. When I reach the front gate, I raise my hands and turn around waiting to be dragged away to pay for my sins. When I catch a glimpse of the girl I loved, the confusion and and pain in her face as she realized what I was doing. I'm sorry Clarke. I never meant to hurt you but I can't live with what I've done, They deserve justice and you deserve so much more than me. May we meet again princess. Thinking mear second before being dragged away by the grounder to meet my fate.
(Blah blah.... y'all know what happens at camp jaha with Raven, Clarke, and Bellamy. So fast forward to Finn being brought out)
Yelling, chanting, grounders spiting at me as I make my way out. Commotion stirs the nearer to the pole I get, when I realize Clarke is here talking to the commander. No Clarke, you'll be killed. You can't die for me please. Fear runs through my veins not just for Clarke but for what is to come and I see it in Clarke's face as she watches by my wrist being bound to the log behind me. I can't hear her words to the commander, I can only see her lips moving which have now been made glossy with her tears. Her sweet lips that I never deserved and missed so dearly. Confusion hits me when I see her make her way toward me and then her lips are on mine. Her lips are sweet and delicate, salty from the tears but I don't care because for a moment, only a moment, the world disappears and it's only her and I. I open my eyes to see her beautiful eyes which were once filled with life , light, and constant thinking, that are now full of sorrow and pain, as she says the words I never thought I'd hear from her.
"I love you too" she cries
"I'm scared" I admit as she goes in to embrace me when a sharp and cold pain touches my gut. I knew what was happening, she was showing me mercy and I was thankful yet angry because the grounders had every right to kill me the way they wished. But none of that mattered now. Clarke's warm tears fell onto my shoulder as she muttered in my ear
"You're gonna be okay" as she plunged the rest of the cold steel blade in me. At that moment a life time of memories flooded me, the long chats raven and I had on the ark as children, the times I'd save some of my food proportions for raven so she could eat, the annoyance in Clarke's face when I got out of my seat on our way down to earth, the first time I made her smile, the river swim we had, our first kiss, the pain in her face after raven kissed me, the hurt they both were in because I hurt them, the war at the drop ship, all of it. I remember it all as my world slowly fades away and can only manage to get out a few words
"Thanks princess " as my world goes black.
(Fast forward to after the two grounders take Finns body away from raven and Clarke)
A cold breeze hits my face as I flutter my eyes open, the I realize I am alive.......
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Fate Worse Than Death
Fanfiction{currently on hold} What if Finn had survived? Would even he be able live with himself? But the real question is who will Clarke choose, Lexa , Finn,or Bellamy. This is a story of treachery, betrayal, love, and woe of what could've happened if Finn...
