Clarke's POV:
"Finn! Get off of me! Finn!" I scream as a grounders drag me up the stairs to ground level. The last horrific sight of Finn's cell is another grounder tossing Finn on the ground for trying to get to me and beating him till his blood redecorates the cold dark cement floor. I protest till we reach the ground level where I am tossed into a tent nearby.
"Did you really think you could see the boy without me knowing?" I look up to see Lexa standing up from her throne. Enraged I can't help but confront her.
"You can't let them kill him! Don't you dare let him die!" Toe to toe I feel Lexa breath quicken for a split second until she turns away.
"How childish are you Clarke! You make it so hard for this alliance to stick. I am doing EVERYTHING to keep this alliance intact but you continue to jeopardize it. My OWN people are calling or my head. And yet I still can't let you go." Lexa voice was frustrated but no at me, it was frustrated at herself. Then Lexa turns to face me once more with hurt in her eyes. " We are days away from marching on Mount Weather Clarke, don't let your feelings get in the way. What matters right now is the war." I knew she was right as much as I didn't want to admit it.
"He's dying Lexa, please tell your people to ease up. Otherwise he won't live to fulfill his punishment. But your right, I've been reckless and I'm sorry." Shame floods over my face. Lexa regains her power stance with her usual blank expression at the sight.
"Your actions will cost us, but I must give my people justice. So you can tend to Finn's new wounds and give him a small plate of his food to ensure he is fed, BUT....... You will only have 30 minutes to do so ......and as punishment you will have to wait 2 weeks to visit him again." 2 WEEKS!?!?! Finn will die without me helping him. "And Nyko will be brought in to get some justice." A terror strikes within me because I know that if the torture doesn't kill Finn, Nyko will.
"Nyko will kill Finn!!! You can't." I plead with Lexa.
"Oh , I can Clarke! I will be there to ensure he lives, but I can't promise much more. The boy must pay for what he's done and so must you. You have 1/2 an hour to see the boy, then you will be dragged out." Lexa snarls as she leaves the tent, leaving my by myself. 30 minutes?!?! That's not enough! I rush out and head into Finn's cell but am met with the horrid sight of Finn curled up in fetal position with his hands over his head shaking. When I remove his arm from his face, he seems scared at first until he lowers his walls a bit.
"Clarke? Are you ok? Did they hurt you?" Finn. The boy I love so much, still worries more for me even as his face is covered in his own blood, bruised all over his body and not being able to open his left eye from the swelling. I have no words to say, instead tears begin to threaten a flood.
"Um we have 30 minutes, so I have to clean this up. Is that ok?" I ask before placing my hands on him. He nods and stares at me the whole time I clean the dried blood on his face.
"Thanks princess." Those words. The words he meant as his last words when I plunged a knife into him. They are enough to break the dam and brings tears streaming down. "Hey don't cry, I'm sorry." Finn wipes my tears from my face so gently but I can see that the small movement is causing him so much pain , both physically and mentally. He tries to hide his groans but knows he's been caught. But in the moment all I wanted was Finn, the boy I love, those lips whose I thought I'd never feel again. So I do the only thing I can think of to help both of us and close the distance between us. His lips have become chapped from dehydration but still ever-soft, I feel him give in for a moment before stopping.
"You shouldn't have done that." Finn turns away looking at the floor. WHAT!!!! Are you kidding me!!!
"What do you mean Finn? I love you." I try to bring his gaze but he rejects it.
"No you don't Clarke. And that's okay, really." What has gotten into him? I know my time is running out so I don't protest yet and hand him a pinch of grapes and a dry slice of bread.
"You need to eat, from the looks of it you haven't been." I gesture the items to him but he only shakes his head. "C'mon Finn. Please?"
"The food..... doesn't stay down. It's pointless" Finn begins to tuck his knees to his chest as I sit next to him this time.
"Here I'll eat with you, I'm hungry but I won't eat until you do." I know he can't deny me of food, he knows how much I love it. I remember one of our first nights on earth when Finn stood up to Bellamy and Murphy's rules for food. I remember thinking that he was an idiot but it was cute. Finn accepts a piece of bread with a couple grapes to follow. After swallowing, I could tell he was struggling to keep it down. "Hey listen to me," I kneel in front of him to distract him from his stomachs wish, " I love you Finn. Even if you don't believe it yet. Now please keep your food down, for me." I know I struck a chord with him as he nods and pushes his food down. After a couple minutes he loses the control of keeping it down and vomits all over himself.
"Im so sorry, I failed. I tried Clarke I really did" Finn breaks into tears as curls up once more. His wounds will only get infected if he doesn't have a clean shirt, after how much the grounders starved him, he's slimmed down to about my size. So I remove my shirt and hand it to him.
"Don't worry about it, at least you tried. Here! You're gonna need a clean shirt to help you healing. I just wear my jacket." Finn hesitates before accepting the shirt and I reach for my jacket when the cell doors open.
"Times up Clarke, I let you-" Lexa freezes at the door frame then turns away slow enough to see a tear form in her eyes. "Get dressed both of you and meet met upstairs after Clarke." Without turning Lexa leaves. I can't help but feel guilt, I know she cares for me and seeing me with Finn topless, how ever innocent our intentions were, must've looked like something else. I put on my jacket and give a freezing Finn a kiss on the forehead before leaving.
"I'll be back soon." I tell Finn. When I walk up I see Lexa and her scouts horse mount already. Lexa says nothing during our journey back to Arkadia but half way there I can't take it any more. "Lexa look, what you saw was not what it seemed like. You see Finn- "
"We don't need to discuss it" Lexa interrupts with a crack of pain in her voice but an emotionless face. We continued on our journey but as we reached closer to Arkadia, I had a thought. Finn is keeping the alliance for Mount Weather, but we only have it set for war against the Mountain Men. What will happen after? Then the realization hit, Finn will be killed after. There is no alliance keeping him alive after Mount Weather. We have to get him out!!
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Fate Worse Than Death
Fanfiction{currently on hold} What if Finn had survived? Would even he be able live with himself? But the real question is who will Clarke choose, Lexa , Finn,or Bellamy. This is a story of treachery, betrayal, love, and woe of what could've happened if Finn...
