Clarke's POV:
Goddamitt why did Bellamy have to say and do all that. Now I'm just confused on what I want. I just lost Finn now I have to make this choice?!?! I spend the night pacing my tent. In the morning I know that I have to check on Finn, no matter how painful. I walk into med bay to see Finn trying out some crutches while talking to my mom.
"Oh morning Clarke. Seems Finn is almost as stubborn as you" my mom jokes to try and clear the awkwardness in the air with Finn and I only staring at each other. "Well Finn, you will be able to walk with these crutches till you recover but meet me here twice a day for me to check up on your wounds." My mom instructs Finn before leaving. Finn and I sit in the awkward silence for a bit before he speaks.
"Um is there any food to spare?" That's right, I forgot that Finn hasn't eaten in days and when he did in the village he wouldn't be able to keep it down.
"Ya here I'll take you." I lead Finn to the cafeteria where he picks up an apple and a roll.
"That's it? Since when do you not like food" I joke around as we sit.
"Hey I'm on a diet can't you tell" Finn gives his quirky smirk as he points to his hollowing stomach. "Relax princess, it's a joke" Finn reads the concern in my face. It almost feels as if I had Finn back, we spent our time laughing and joking around as he cut into his apple. Bellamy enters the cafeteria but I can't notice anything other than pain his eyes as he sees Finn and I laughing over a meal.
"Clarke you're mom was asking for you." Bellamy let's me know before and left afterwords.
"Well duty calls" I give Finn a small salute as I leave him picking chunks of the roll.
Finn's POV:
There is murmurs in the cafeteria as the stare at me at my lone table. As Clarke heads out the door I notice someone quickly get up after. I was suspicious til I realized it was just Jasper. So I continued to pick at my roll alone trying to ignore the voices in the cafeteria and in my mind. Everyone hates you. You're going to get them all killed. Die already. *gunshot* screams outside break my trance. Everyone has already ran outside to see what's happened while I grab my crutches and take a short cut to the market booth. But I find Jasper pointing a gun at Clarke. Clarke dares not move nor do I, I sit in the corner unseen by all . Guards begin to arrive and threaten Jasper but he makes his commands pretty clear.
"Hey chancellor!?!?" Jasper mocks into the air as Abby arrives. "Oh there you are" Jasper has clearly been drinking since his grin doesn't fade even with his face red and puffy from tears. "If you want your daughter to live or me not kill anyone else..... you and your guards will get back in the ship and leave ur weapons here. It's that simple."
"If I leave you'll still kill My daughter, I can't have that" Abby refuses.
"All I wanna do is talk to her that's it" jasper fires into one of the guards' legs , "next one is in your daughter chancellor! You're choice." I've never seen Jasper like this, his eyes darted at Clarke with no sign of the guy I called my friend. Jasper had hatred and pain in his eyes as he spoke. Abby had no choice but to depart. I watch as Jasper turns back to Clarke from the booth right next to Jasper not having sight of Clarke.
"Jasper please, look I'm sorry bout maya but I had no other choice." I hear Clarke plead with an unsteady Jasper who seems to get far more enraged by her plea.
"Don't-...... don't you dare say her name!" Jasper shouts at Clarke as he walks a few steps closer to her. I move to look over the counter to be able to see them both, careful not to be seen.
"She was innocent" I hear Jasper begin to sob as he continues " there were CHILDREN, people who helped us! Why! Why couldn't you wait a couple fucking seconds?!?! It would all been over when I killed Cage." Jasper is bearly audible at this point.
"I'm so sorry Jasper. I wish you could've saved everyone, but it wouldn't have stopped them. You know that." Clarke's voice breaks with fear and pain.
"Shut up! Just SHUT THE FUCK UP!" Jasper cocks the pistol and aims it at Clarke head. I wanted to stop Jasper but my legs couldn't support me enough to walk, let alone run. I was petrified at the thought of Clarke being killed because I couldn't move. Dammit I'm just a pile of flesh and bones at this point. I feel so helpless but I realize the only thing I can do is use the fact that I'm basically a sack of weight. I crawled out behind Jasper and tackled/ put all my weight onto Jasper. "Get the hell off me!" Jasper reached for his gun just as I did, wrestling on the ground for gun I couldn't feel the pain my body was really in.
"Finn!" Clarke yelled for me as Jasper grabbed a hold of the gun . All I knew was he couldn't shoot Clarke so no matter how much blood I was losing or how much pain I felt I got up and took Jasper and I back onto the ground. Jaspers grip was too strong for my bruised hands so I banged his hand onto the ground until I hear it drop. The guards came rushing out of the ship toward us.
"I'm sorry Jasper " I grabbed Jasper by the collar and held him there till he went unconscious. What did I do? God I'm a monster! All the pain of the re opened wounds comes and hits me like a truck as the guard drag Jasper away. I attempt to get up but my body refuses, I fall into darkness trying to. All I see is Clarke running to me but I couldn't keep my eyes open long enough to see her get to me. What have I done.... What have I done?
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Fate Worse Than Death
Fanfiction{currently on hold} What if Finn had survived? Would even he be able live with himself? But the real question is who will Clarke choose, Lexa , Finn,or Bellamy. This is a story of treachery, betrayal, love, and woe of what could've happened if Finn...
