Ruin Me Jeon {Jeon Jungkook Fanfiction}

16: Reverberations

~ 08:30; BTS House ~

I groan as soon as I wake up and start to regain consciousness. I feel sore in my stomach, pain in my head, and sluggish, as hell. All of them are known to me because they are after the effect of being reckless and getting drunk - The hangover effect. But the pain in my abdominal region and back is new.

Am I on my periods?

I open my eyes to get the sunlight right into my eyes. "Tch," I voice out and get the duvet over my head. The smell is new. I open my eyes under the covers and see it isn't mine, and the hoodie I can see around my arm and then over my body isn't mine either. It has men's cologne, making me panic. I sit up and wince at the rush of sudden pain.

"Ouch, it hurt," I whisper and hold my abdomen with my head as well. I look around to see a very familiar room, the room at the guys' house. I saw this room last time I came over for the party. The same fucking room. I start to panic and feel my undergarments are missing, and my bra cups wouldn't be there if I'm wearing a hoodie. But my underwear is missing.

Who is this massive to have this gigantic hoodie? I am drowning in the hoodie, more like a dress on my petite figure. I look around and see nothing, no one, but my phone. "Who was I with?" Jungkook? I start to panic, making every scenario that comes into my mind.

"I guess I have to leave you here, raw."

"So, you don't need me?"

"Gosh, you got me."

"Since it is your first time. I'll be gentle."

"All yours."

"It was amazing."

All the faded memories come up with faded words. I grab my hair, pulling them and regretting going out and getting drunk with no one around. As I was getting myself bald, the door opens suddenly, making me look up at who is at the door. It is Jungkook with a tray full of food in his hand. "Oh, you're up," He smiles at me and marches towards the bed with the tray. He sets it on the table and walks to me. "Good morning. Freshen up and eat breakfast."

"Why am I here?" I ask, looking at him with an out-and-out face, not getting entertain by his actions at all. His smile falls as he hears me saying it. "Hello? Why?"

"You seriously forgot everything?" Oh no, the typical sentence after the night, I think while getting alarmed that everything I am thinking is all true. He sighs and takes out his phone to flash it on my face with the front camera. I examine the dark marks on my skin. My eyes widen, knowing that I'm no longer out of his list of hook-ups. "Remember?"

"It can't be real..." I say and look at him. "Please, say nothing happened," I say with a pleading voice, almost on the verge of crying. But my eyes ditch me, and tears start to stream down my eyes, making my cheeks wet. Jungkook panics and bends down to hold my face.

"Hey, why are you crying?"

"Did we?" I ask him right after he asks me, sobbing with hiccups in between. He nods, making me feel like shit. I slap his hands away from my face and get up, only to fall because the pain is new to me. It hurts more than cramps.

"Ray," He holds me and places me back on the bed with him, squatting in front of me. "Shh, calm down," He says the most foolish thing. "It wasn't a big deal." I get furious and irritated at the same time and remove his hands from mine.

"It is, Jeon. It is," I exclaim, pushing him away from my sore body. "It is just because you keep fucking around doesn't mean I do too. I was a virgin and wasn't ready to let it get out by a fucking manwhore, who fucks around and irritates the girl who rejects him," I scream and keep bawling my eyes. I lost my temper and couldn't think straight. "I am leaving," I walk out wearing his hoodie, which is keeping me warm and soaked in my tears. I leave the house without looking back or listening to his calls. I leave without collecting my clothes or underwear. I simply left after making the stupidest mistake I could.

I just left.

~ 14:30; College Hallway ~

I don't want to do anything. Also, it is a holiday for us today. So, I decided to come here and get some books. Call me a nerd. I don't care. The fact that I'm not a virgin anymore, no more different from all the girls who have slept with a shameless jerk, Jungkook, no more the same, and pure Ray is just killing me inside. I never knew that virginity could be so important until I gave it away. You know it is said -

You can't understand the value of something until and unless you lose it.

I am feeling the same. I wanted my first to be romantic with someone special, not me being drunk with a playboy. I sigh and get the books I want to read the upcoming weekend next week. I issue the books by the librarian for two weeks and go to the cafeteria, which is open for us. I get a cup of hot Choco, with extra whip cream and a French toast. I haven't eaten since the morning drama, and it is lunch already. I walk to the table near the counter and start to dine there only while reading the books. Better finish it in two weeks. I keep reading the first book line by line, but one line wasn't leaving my side. Its presence is still lingering around.

"I love you."

I close my eyes and try to listen to it carefully, maybe, it is something, and I am listening to something else.

"I love you."

But I could only hear those three empty words. My phone starts to ring, making me get out of my world into the real world.

"Hey, Ray, you're out?"

"Yes, I'm in the cafeteria. Why? Do you want something to eat?"

"No, I didn't see you since last night so, I was worried,"

"Yeah, I'm fine and out."

She hums and declines the call. I find myself thinking about it again. I sigh and bring back my focus on the book, reading again with those three empty words wandering around my body.

"Hey," I look up and see Joe. I smile and pull my bag on my lap, leaving the chair vacant for him to sit down. "Wassup?" He says, loudly taking a lot of attention.

"Calm down," I whisper to him, giving him a hint that others are getting disturbed by him. He bows behind us and apologizes to others, making me chuckle at him. He is so polite. "Nothing much, just lunch."

He nods but stops when he sees my food. Hot Choco with one French toast. "Are you dieting?" I shake my head, and he frowns, making me frown. "So, are you saving food?" I chuckle as he says that. It is stupid but stupid enough to enlighten my ruined mood. "Or are you having a starter round?"

"What are you talking about?"

"That isn't lunch. That's either light breakfast or snack." I shrug and keep eating it. "Rude, but let's go out?" He asks and raises his eyebrows. I think about it, and I haven't gone out since I came here.

"Sorry, but she is busy," We hear a rasping voice, making me turn around immediately. Jungkook, my heart is literally flipping. Is it after sex effect or something? "She can't go," Joe looks at me, and I look at Jungkook with a frown.

"And who are you to say that?" Joe asks in an irritating voice, making me look at him as both play stare-stare with each other. Glare-glare would be accurate. At Jungkook's silence, I look up at him to see him smirking mischievously.

"Her boyfriend, any problem?"

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