Ruin Me Jeon {Jeon Jungkook Fanfiction}

20: Confession

"What the heck," I scream as the person pushes me against the wall. I look up to meet the same dark brown eyes. "What the hell, Jeon?" I scream on his face, and he takes my wrist to pin it to either side of my face.

"What the hell, Ray?" He questions back with anger clearly audible in his voice. "You said that you aren't like other girls, but I already saw you with two boys in two days. Aren't you the same as the other hoes I fucked before?" He spills out his anger. "Do you even know how hard it has been for me since that night?"

I push him away from my body with all power even though he stumbles one step back only. I slap him across his face feeling disgusting by his word. "I am not like the hoes a manwhore, Jeon Jungkook, fucks around with," He looks up with gritted teeth. "Yesterday, Joe and I went for dinner, and nothing happened. The guy I was with today is my friend from my hometown for over 10 years," I clear all the allegations Jungkook had on me. I turn away from him and start to walk back into the dorm. My eyes are filled with tears, but I hold them back.

"Ray," He calls out and holds my arm, making me face him. I sternly jerk his hand away and turn my back to him again. "Please listen," He turns me back again.

"What?" I am pin again to the wall. He stands close to my body, making me unable to move a single muscle. "Let me go," I try to squeeze my way out, but he holds me in the place. "I will scream," He doesn't move back, so I open my mouth to scream, but he shuts me up with his lips. I stand there, stiff at the place like I haven't been kissed before. I have, but my mind is still acting as if I am new to kissing. His teeth engulf my bottom lip to pull it apart from the upper one, letting him kiss me with my response. His tongue goes in and twirls with my tongue. His head moves from left to right, giving me time to catch quick breaths.

He pulls apart slowly as I breathe heavily. "I am sorry," He murmurs with his head onto mine. "I shouldn't have said that. I just got carried away," He says and holds my waist with his head in the crook of my neck. I have the urge to hug him back but yesterday's incident in the storeroom crosses my mind. I push his hands down slowly, gazing at him with blurry eyes.

"Sorry, Jeon, but please stay away," I let it out. He frowns at me but has a trace of hurt in his eyes. For the first time ever, I could interpret his expression flawlessly.

"Why?" He asks with anxiety in his voice.

"A few days ago, I came to put a bundle of papers in the storeroom and unintentionally overheard you and a girl. I didn't mean to eavesdrop. I also have no intention to be like them so, please stay away," I finally busted him. It somehow hurt me only. I couldn't care more or less now.

"No, it isn't what you're thinking," He starts as soon as I finish. "That girl pushed me in as I was walking past the storeroom. She was all over me, and I couldn't push her because she might've hurt herself. Also, I walked out before something even happened," I laugh in disbelief, knowing the moans were coming out from their mouth.

"I can't believe the fact that you, Jeon Jungkook, the famous fuckboy in the college, didn't fuck a girl when she proposed," He sighs and glances away before he takes off his t-shirt. I get a little off guard by his action and walk back, but unluckily I am already against a wall.

"You see, no hickeys, and you said that happened a few days ago," I roll my eyes and look away. "Ray, there are no marks on my body," I look at him and notice scars on his arms, making me chuckle in disbelief again.

"Such a liar," I touch the scars on his arms, "Seems like it was a hard one," He looks at his arm and sighs again. " Look, what you and your for-the-time being girlfriend did in the storeroom doesn't entertain me. Stop intruding in my life, Jeon. Please, you have hurt me enough."

"Listen, this isn't hers, but," He stops in mid-sentence, "But yours," My cheeks burn up as I look at his skin. It has been long since that night, and those cuts are notably deep. I did them? I feel a little liable but didn't care right now. "Ray, I am sorry for hurting you, and I was pretty drunk that night too."

"I don't know what you want to prove by apologizing?" I ask as this conversation is getting confusing, and standing with him is like me hurting myself only.

"I want to prove that you are driving me insane, and I want you to stay with me as much as I want to stay with you," I am in shock by his words. He isn't behaving like himself. "The first thing I don't want to lose right now is you, please Ray," He sounds less intimidating and arrogant as time passes by.

"Jeon, I don't know. I don't know if what you're saying are words written on rock or air," I say and squeeze myself out of his soft grip, but he isn't letting me go. "Jungkook, please don't make it difficult for me," The tears are not in my control anymore. If at, this point, I say I hate him, then I would be lying. Even if I said I like him, I would also be lying. I feel more than 'liking' for him ever since the night we shared.

It hurt me when I saw him with loads of girls around, but I kept it in. Why? Ego, of course, I was so sure that even if Jungkook was the last person on Earth, I would die a virgin, but still, my first was him. I was too convinced by myself that he and I never happened, which made me blind to the fact that I was already connected to him, physically and emotionally.

"Ray, please, I'll ask for just one chance. One chance, and I'll prove to you that I can be the perfect one for you, only for you," The pain in his voice makes me feel unusual that I always felt around him, only him. "Please," He begs again, and I give in.

"Fine, but I don't want anyone to know what we are," Fun fact, we didn't even know what we are? Couple? Friends? More than a friend? What are we? He nods and leans in to get his lips to engage with my lips. It was the first time I am voluntarily kissing him back. He smiles at that moment and wraps his arms around my waist as he did before when he hugged me.

He pulls away to gaze into my eyes. "Thank you for letting me prove to you that I can change too," He smiles and hugs me just like before, but this time I hug him back as well. He changes our positions and leans his body on the wall with my body on his. It is like I always had that desire that possessed me to do this for once, and it is happening. "Let's go. I'll leave you to your room."

"It's fine. I can go by myself," I say, sensing my heart beating faster than usual. Jungkook still slides his hand down my arm and cups my small hands in his big one. We walk out of the deserted place which had us only. "Wait, your t-shirt," I stop as I notice his t-shirt is still off. He looks down while I look away, waiting, calmly, for him to get his t-shirt on.

I sense him moving beside me. "Done," I look back, and he has his t-shirt on. We start to walk to the entrance when he breaks the ice, "Also, you can be comfortable around me. It's not like you haven't seen me shirtless before."

"I haven't-" I stop realizing what he is referring to. My cheeks turn red. "I haven't... I was drunk," I whisper the last sentence, but he giggles, maybe because he caught my sentence.

"You're adorable," He kisses my cheek, which is red from the embarrassment. "Can't believe I finally fell for someone," He says, making me look up at him. Jungkook caresses my hand soft while staring back. Was it him, my the one?

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