Ruin Me Jeon {Jeon Jungkook Fanfiction}

38: You

I walk faster down the hall to the library to give back the book I issued a week ago. It is already lunch, but today is the last day to give back the book. I hear my phone. I know who is calling, the usual impatient soul, Jungkook. I pick up his call. "Where are you?" He starts it off with a whine.

"Library. I'll be there in about 10 minutes, okay?" He hums in response. He is such a baby. "I love you."

"You really know how to take advantage of weak points," I giggle with him. "Hurry over. I love you too."

I smile to myself and disconnect the call. The library isn't empty, but it isn't packed either. Without paying attention to anyone, I walk to the librarian to give back the books. Before submitting, I walk to the rack and look for some new novel. Jungkook is very impatient. He will definitely come for a search after 10 minutes, so I better hurry.

I walk back to the librarian for submitting and issuing the books. The librarian smiles at me gently, like always, and passes me the register. I did the registration before taking the three new novels with me. I walk out happy and hurry to the cafeteria. Jungkook will be upset otherwise.

"Wait up," I feel someone stopping me by putting their hand on my shoulder. I turn around to a girl with blonde, short hair. She is with the sorority girls, who pressured me the other day. "Ray, right?" I nod, making her smile go wide. "Hi, Na Mina," She extends her arm in front of me, I take it hesitantly.

"Jeong Ray," I say.

"Of course, I know. So, I heard you aren't joining the sorority? Well, you have a golden opportunity to join us. We are inviting you."

"Yeah, about that, I already told you that I am not interested."

"Wait," She blocks my way again as I am in a hurry to reach the cafeteria, but she isn't leaving me alone. "You will have so many advantages if you're in our sorority, we are really famous, and we don't take people this easily." She tries to persuade me.

"Look, I am really sorry, but I am not interested in joining any sort of sorority. It is just not my thing," I pressurize on each and every word, especially really, to get Mina to understand me. Her expression drops, and she just scoffs.

Did I unleash the devil?

"Oh my god, I am exhausted now," She bluntly starts. "Do you have a brain or not? I am trying to tell you the advantages, and you are just. You know what, fuck it, you aren't even on our level. I wonder why Jungkook is even with you. Maybe just playing. I think you will see yourself on the ground real soon. Do you really think Jungkook is satisfied? He doesn't do parties every day, fucks around anymore, and I don't think he would ever fuck you because you got nothing here," She moves her finger up and down, pointing out my body.

I feel every word of her stabbing right into my heart and nowhere else. I am struck by the phrase that fighting back is not an option for me. All of my insecurities are haunting me. Whatever she said was true. I am an average girl, not like them. But Jungkook always says I am different, which seems to make sense to me negatively. I am different... very different, not like these girls or anyone in this college. I don't belong here. But I never approached anyone, nor did I ever stop anyone. Was Jungkook really just playing? Is it all an act?

"I wasted my time here. These girls were right. You are nothing but a thick-skinned bitch," I looked down, too weak to attack. My tears keep threatening to roll down.

"The only thick-skinned and bitch I see is you, Na Mina," I look up in the direction of the voice. Jungkook is standing there with anger in his eyes, jaws clenching, controlling himself from throwing a fist on Mina's face. "Ray isn't joining your sorority because it is full of thick-skinned fake bitches like you," Jungkook pulls me to his side. He looks down at me with eyes getting soft. Jungkook grabs my face and caresses it softly.

"Don't act Jungkook. We all know you are just playing with her," Mina scoffs at us. Jungkook rolls his eyes before facing Mina. Mina let out a cold chuckle with her arms crossed. "You have fucked everyone and probably not her. That's why you're acting to get into her pants. I, we, know who the creature Jeon Jungkook is," Jungkook let go of my cheeks and pushed me behind him before roaring on Mina.

"Ray and others are two different people for me. You and others are nothing to me. It was all a time-pass. But Ray is everything to me. And whatever we do is none of other's, especially your business," Mina and her friends stare at Jungkook with fear. "If you say anything to Ray or even lay a single finger on her, then you will have to face me." Jungkook drags me away from Mina and others somewhere else. His words are still roaming in my head.

He used girls for fun. Those girls are time pass for him. What if I am one of them even if he shows love? I could see the hurt in their eyes. Their, how many? "Are you okay?" Jungkook suddenly stops and faces me. I am deep into my thoughts that I didn't know we were on the rooftop.

I nod, shrugging all my thoughts. "Yeah, I'm fine," I get out of Jungkook's grip and walk to the railing, gripping on the cold iron, thinking about everything. My eyes are still blurry with tears. Jungkook wraps his arms around me from behind, giving me the warmth I want at this moment the most.

My mind tries to stay up straight and strong, but my heart breaks into tears as his warmth embraces me. "Sorry. I know you feared it. I shouldn't have done that drama that," He whispers softly into my ears. A soft kiss is pressed on my ear, making me sob softly. "Please, say something. At least look at me."

I turn around to dive into his embrace as it is too hard to resist. I bury my face into his chest, and he caresses my hair softly. All the worries and insecurities haunting me somehow start to go away. "Shh, it's fine, love," My heart is sinking after hearing his voice. "Those were mindless girls. Just don't pay attention to those girls," Jungkook lifts my face, making us gaze at each other before he presses his forehead fondly over mine. "Pay attention to me."

"But Jungkook, they said you are just playing," I manage to let these words out before crying harder.

"Look at me," I do as he says. "You are NOT something I would be using for fun ever."

"You said those were time pass, you fucked them and me as well, what's the difference? That you care, then I don't think I'm dif—."

"I never fucked you. I already told you, every moment we shared means everything to me. Whatever I did before knowing you were stupid. I know because I never thought of being in a serious thing with anyone. I was a careless idiot until you came. Never think you mean something similar to someone else," I sniff, looking deep into his eyes, finding a hint of a lie, but I couldn't. "All of them were time pass and one-time thing, but you're my future."

~ˣₒˣₒ Pals~ ♡