The Playboy's Pursuit

PROLOGUE

SUZY'S POV

"Dude, dapat niligawan mo na agad si Chantal! Bukod sa maganda na, sexy pa! Bagay na bagay kayong dalawa!"

"Yeah dude! Matagal ng may gusto sa'yo 'yon! Wag mo ng patagalin pa!"

My hold at my glass tightened when I heard those talk from behind me. Lalo na ng magsitawanan ang mga ito, oblivious with my presence behind them and how much I was hurting right now.

Lalo na nang marinig ko ang pamilyar na tawang 'yon. Klent's hearty laugh... Sounding so entertained with that idea.

Klent Joseph Andrada, the genius heartthrob in Don Benedict Blaire University and the only man that had caught my interest since freshman year. At sya ang tanging dahilan kung bakit nagkakandaugaga akong pumunta sa kahit saan para lang makita ito.

And tonight was no different with that..

Just hearing his laugh now, I can't help but held my breath. Anxious with what he was going to answer.

Liligawan na kaya nito si Chantal?

Just the thought of the possibilities that he will really breaks my heart. Tiim lang ang mga bagang na nakatitig ako sa basong hawak ko ngayon. Just staring the half filled glass without even blinking an eye.. Afraid that if I ever blink my eyes now, a tear would escape from it at baka hindi ko na mapigilan 'yon at mapahiya pa'ko rito.

I think coming here tonight was really a mistake. And I'm starting to regret that now. Dapat hindi na'ko umabsent pa sa trabaho ko para lang pumunta rito.

Kung hindi ko lang sana nagustuhan ang taong 'to, then I wouldn't have been here by now hurting silently.
Well, not that he was aware that he was doing that to me. Hindi naman nito sinabing gustuhin ko ito dahil ang talino nito sa lahat ng major classes namin at ang bait nito para sa isang heartthrob na katulad nya. At mas lalong hindi nya sinabing pumunta ako sa lahat ng okasyon kung saan nandun rin sya. Just to see him.. Just to see him smile. Just to see his angelic face smiling.

That itself would've convinced me not to ever like him dahil alam kong masasaktan lang ako sa huli pero hindi. I still chose to like him dahil pinapasaya nya 'ko everytime I'd get to see his kind smile.

Nawawala ang lahat ng mga insecurities ko sa sarili ko kapag nakikita ko lang ito. It wasn't like his smile was directed on me but atleast, napapasaya nya ko kahit tinitingnan ko lang ito sa malayo.

That itself was enough for me. Kahit na impossible namang magkagusto ito sa isang katulad ko. The nobody in our batch. I wasn't expecting for some miracle.

"No. Masyado pa tayong busy ngayon dahil may mga thesis pa tayo until next sem so no.. Pass muna ako dyan ngayon."

Hindi ko alam kung bakit parang nakahinga ako ng maluwag when I heard that. I felt like a thorn was being pulled out from my chest just hearing him saying that.

This time, I was able to smile now and sipped some beer again.

I guess I've chosen the right man for me. Klent was nothing like his playboy friends para sunggaban agad ang Chantal na'yon.

Chantal Montemayor is a senior as well gaya ko. A senior IT chic who got a height and a physical appearance of a beauty queen. A soul that was the complete opposite of myself.

Hurt creep into me when I started the self pity 'thing' again. The thing that I always do every chance I could get. Gaya ngayon...

Agad ko na lamang na inubos ang lahat ng laman ng baso in one gulp, wanted to wash away all the insecurities I have in me.