SOFIA | ❨ NEVILLE LONGBOTTOM ❩ UNDER MAJOR EDITING!

Love, Neville.

Dear my lovely Sofia,

I'm sorry I'm writing to you so suddenly. I know that you probably don't want to speak to me. Or, maybe you do... I don't really know what I know for sure anymore. I thought I knew myself. I thought I knew you. But, I don't.
When I met you, my whole being changed. I wanted to change for you, Sofia. I wanted to be good enough for you. I wanted to be more than your boyfriend. I wanted to be your protector, your safe place, your home. I even wanted to be your forever. I wanted to have a love story that we could tell our kids about, and that they would go on to tell their children. I wanted for everyone to know our love story.
But, like most love stories, ours has a tragic ending. No silver lining, no fine line, not even a final word.
I remember the Muggle story you told me about once. Romeo and Juliet, I believe it was called? Star crossed lovers, who's love was so strong for each other, but, they never got to utter those last words. You said that it made you cry, and that when your Mother read it to you, it made you more afraid of love.
But, my lovely Sofia, you shouldn't have been afraid of that. You should've been more afraid of a story like us. We weren't forbidden, nor did we die before getting to tell each other how we truly felt. We had our chance. We got to tell each other how we felt, make love, all the things that Romeo & Juliet were unable to do. We had our love story, Sof. But, something worse happened to us. The world stopped us. Fate wasn't in our favor.
And, I don't know why. Did one of us do something wrong? Are we truly not meant to be?
Whatever it is... it's not fair. I fucking love you, Sofia Cherith. I loved you from the first time I saw you in the Hospital wing that day. When you turned your head, and I saw those rosy cheeks of yours, I was completely gone. I was head over heels for you. I was yours.
Please understand this, Sofia. Please understand every single word I'm writing. You told me that one day I will find someone else, and I'll make them just as happy as I made you.
But, I can't, Sofia. I will never be able to give my love to someone else. My heart, my whole fucking soul belongs to you. I'm yours, Sofia. Please understand that. I will never move on from you. I will never be able to find someone like you.
You're different, Sof. You're the most beautiful person that I've ever had the pleasure of meeting, on the inside and out. Every word that you speak, it's poetic. Every breath that you take, it brings me such peace.
You saved me, Sofia. I never thought anyone could love me, or even care about me in the way you do. I could've lost every single person that I love, but, if you were still beside me? I wouldn't have cared. I would still have you. You're all I need. You're all I've ever needed, Sofia Cherith.
Every time you kissed me, I felt like I could fly. Laying beside you, I felt like nothing could touch me. You were my home.
You're apart of me now, Sof. And, I can't let you go. I refuse to let you go. You can hate me, never speak to me again, I don't care. But I will never stop fucking loving you. I will never let go of you, or what we had.
I'm terrified of forgetting you. I'm terrified of forgetting those sparkles in your eyes. I'm terrified of forgetting your warm skin pressed against my cold body. I'm terrified of forgetting the way you used to say my name. I'm terrified of forgetting. All of it.  So, please... don't let me. Next year, let me see you. I won't speak, I won't plead, I just simply want to look at you one last time. I just want to look into your eyes one more time, so I can assure myself that I'll never forget. And, I'll go away. I'll go away because that's what you want. And, I will never break the promise I made to you, Sof.
I know that some part of you still loves me, though. You reassured me of that when you tapped the bracelet earlier today. But, it might have been an accident. I couldn't be too sure. Just knowing you, though... I think you still might. People like you just don't stop loving people, Sof. They continue to love, even if they're apart.
Even if I don't know much anything anymore, I know one thing.
You brought me happiness in a way that no one else ever could. With you, I belonged somewhere. And, please don't think that I only loved you because you filled my loneliness. I loved you for so much more than just that, Sofia.
I love you for your good, your bad, everything. I love you. You, Sofia Cherith. I will never love anyone or anything the way I love you.
But, please, Sof. Take care of yourself. Don't fall into that deep hole that you swore you would drag me down into. Don't do that to yourself. I can't manage seeing you hurt. Be kind to yourself. Love yourself the way you loved me and everyone else. Maybe, that will do you some good. And, you'll realize why you mean so much to people.
If you need me, I'm still here. I'm not going anywhere. Of course, I won't sit by my window everyday just waiting for a letter to come. But, I will be here. I'll still be here if one day the stars decide to align, and fate decides to work in our favor. I'm never far from you, Sof. Please know that.
Be with your Mom, Sof. Spend all the time you can with her. You know better than I do that she needs you. I shouldn't have to tell you that, though. I know that you've probably already comforted her more than you have yourself.
I love you, Sofia Cherith. And, I don't think I can stop.
And, if you happen to find someone else, I hope they don't take you for granted. I really hope that they don't let you slip through their fingers. Because, everyone deserves a Sofia Cherith in their life.
I love you,
Forever and more, Sof.

Love, Neville.

The (Tragic) End.