Lost Island ✓

DIECISIETE

#CHAPTER17

"NO! You are not in the right state of mind to talk to him." Shiela tried to stop me, but I made my decision.

"Shiela, let me go. I wanted to hear the truth from his lips. I wanted him to confirm it. In that way, I could easily forget about him."

I wanted to hear the truth from him, even if I know that it would hurt me more. 

Huminga siya nang malalim bago tumango. "Do you want me to come with you?" nag-aalalang tanong nito.

I shook my head. I don't want her to see how wrecked I will be later. Tama nang umiyak ako sa kanya. Ayaw ko nang makita niya pang durog na durog ako. 

"I can do this alone," matigas na sambit ko kaya binitawan niya na 'ko.

"Then, good luck. Just remember that I will always be right here for you," Shiela reminded before pulling me in a quick hug.

I WALKED and walked and walked. People are staring at me, but I couldn't care less. I don't care about them anymore. All I care about is where to find him. He must be somewhere around. Or did he attend his class?

I jogged to the boys' building. Huminto ako sa mismong harapan no'n. I just stood there as I wait until the classes are over. Isa-isa silang humihinto kada makikita ako. I know I looked pathetic now, standing here, waiting for him after crying endlessly. 

Ang iba'y pinagtatawanan ako, ang iba'y walang pakialam habang ang iba'y naaawa. I tried my best not to look at them. Tinanaw ko lamang ang exit, tinitignan kung siya na ba ang lalabas. Ngunit lumipas ang isang buong oras na nakatayo lamang ako ro'n. Nakalabas na ata ang lahat ngunit hindi siya sumulpot.

Nasaan ka na ba? Kailangan kita. Hindi ako pwedeng umiyak kasi wala ka. Leo, magpakita ka naman. Linawin mo naman ang lahat sa akin. Sabihin mo'ng hindi totoo ang sinabi ni Shiela. Paniniwalaan kita. 

Sa huli'y nakagat ko na lamang ang labi ko nang mamuong muli ang mga luha sa aking mga mata. Hindi ako pumikit, dahil sa oras na gawin ko 'yon ay tuluyan na namang tutulo ang mga luha ko. At hindi ko na alam kung kailan pa iyon titigil.

Malabo na ang aking paningin dahil sa mga luhang namuo sa aking mga mata. Ngunit kahit na gano'n, buong tapang ko pa ring nilingon ang taong nasa likuran ko. I can't see him clearly, but from his outfit, I already know who he is.

"What are you doing here?" he asked. I can hear the temper in his voice.

"L-Leo," I stuttered a little bit. And after that, tears started streaming down my face.

I told myself that I would not cry in front of someone else the day after I promised Leo that I'd only shed my tears when he's with me. But right at this moment, I couldn't stop myself. I thought I was good at holding my tears, but I was wrong. Leo triggered it to fell, but he wasn't there.

"Stop crying," he said as if it's as easy as said.

He left me when I needed him. He left me all alone in this mess. 

"W-Where is Leo?" I looked up to him, pleading with my crying eyes.

He fought my stares, but in the end, he just shook his head. 

"He didn't attend our class."

"Where is he, Dylan?" I held his hand, begging him to say a place.

"Leah, stop making a fool of yourself!" he raised his voice. I took a step back. "Can't you see it? He wasn't here! He wasn't here when you're a mess! He wasn't here now that everything's a mess! He's a coward! He couldn't fight for you. Stop this nonsense! You look pathetic, crying over a man who doesn't give a d*mn!"