Historia. | Kuroo Tetsuro

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trigger warning: chapter may include various disturbing scenes that may trigger unwanted memories or emotions.

I felt my heart getting crushed when I saw the news, when I heard the news, and when Tenji-san started speaking. I grip on to the edge of the coffee table and feel my hand get cut by the glass. I can't breathe. I can't breathe. I can't feel the air... I can't feel the oxygen.

I can't bring myself to speak as I felt like I was choking. No words would come out of my mouth except for whimpers and tiny sounds. My heart is banging inside my chest, and my head is aching like I'm being crushed my a 10000 pound vehicle. I try breathing, and only end up choking on nothingness.

Tetsuro... What... Why... Why..? I... What's happening? What happened...? What made you... what...

I look at Monica in terror, and my tears stream down my face as I continue to panic. I can't feel my chest.. I can't feel my lungs. I let out a scream as I felt suffocated. My heart is aching to burst, and it's so painful. I don't know what to do.... I can't breathe. I don't have an idea... My brain is not functioning, and all I could think of is the news.

His whole body was bleeding.... He was bleeding..... I don't know.. Tetsuro.... I don't know... I can't think straight... I can't hear anything, but my struggle to breathe and my raging heart. I can't feel anything. I can't hear anything. Monica seems to be... what's happening? What's going on..? I want to know... what happened...

"M-M-M-M-M...Moni... Monica....." I can't say it right. "B-B-Bring me... st-sta...station..." She nods, and hugs me tight and tries calming me down. "Tetsuro........"

"It's okay. Shh, he'll be okay... He'll be fine... Shh, calm down." I don't know what to do. Tetsuro... don't leave.. "He'll be okay.. Don't worry."

"M-Monica...." My whole body is shaking. Tetsuro.. why now..? "I don't know what to do....."

"He'll be okay.. He's not going to die. He'll be okay. It's okay.. I'm here." I grip her shirt tightly and clench it into my fists.

I haven't done anything much with him. Why is this happening? I... Why didn't I stay close to him? I should've stayed... I shouldn't have left him for months... I should've gone home earlier.. I'm so sorry... I should've gone home. I should've stayed with you... Tetsuro... Don't leave me..

After a few minutes, I have gotten better and we have left to go to the station. I try my best to contain my worries, and Monica monitors me in case I have another panic attack. When I saw how bad it was, I don't know... I really panicked. He kept on asking me to come home, and now this... Tetsuro.. how can you love someone like me? I always leave you... I don't... Please be okay..

I hurriedly get inside, and look for that Jay. "Miss.. Miss.. May I know—? Satsuki (Y/n)?" I nod, and look around. "Are you here to see Jay?"

"Yes, where is he?" He starts leading the way, and I'm now in front of the detention cell. He's here.. but.. "Y-You.... You're... Himiko's... Boyfriend...?" Jay looks up and glares at me, and I feel my whole body tremble. "You... why did you hurt him..?"

"I wasn't supposed to. He.. threw his fist first! I was casually talking to my friends about how you kicked me out of Himiko's apartment. I was complaining about you! Then that old man started to throw punches at me!"

"What...?" That incident was months ago.. He still hadn't.. "If you were after me then why didn't you just take me instead?! Why did you have to bring him into this...? Why?!"