Historia. | Kuroo Tetsuro

04

trigger warning: self harm.

I dropped my phone, shaking from undeniable fear from what I saw. I never posted anything online! I would never post anything online.. but who? no one else knows about my account but me!

I don't understand any of this. I would never do anything to offend her--well, I did slap her but that's different! I would never expose her to the world! Why would I? I don't have the rights to tell the world about her whereabouts! Plus that's cyber bullying! Why would I even do that?

I pick my phone up, taking a deep breath to calm down. I need to talk to Misaki. I need to explain that I would never do that! I--she's my best friend! Who would do that to their own friend? Maybe someone but not me!

I dial her number, putting it on speakerphone because I can't get a hold of my phone. I'm shaking a lot. I don't know. She picked up! "Hey, Misaki.. I'm sorry! I never--"

"I can't talk right now.. I'm sorry." She hung up.

"No please..."

That night, I cried myself to sleep. I cried as I slept, I cried when I woke up. I locked myself in my room. I cried a lot. I don't understand why that happened to me, to us! Why did it have to happen on that very day? My birthday was ruined.. our friendship..

I'd put on a smile on my face whenever I head out of my room to cook for my parents. I eat before my parents come home, I set everything earlier than I used to. I would clean the whole house before they arrive, do every chore that I could think of just to distract myself from the mess.

How do I solve this? I clearly didn't do it! I was out with her and Rei on that day! I couldn't have posted that on my own! I also would never say that.. I did think that they were trying to do something behind my back but to call her a slut isn't what I had in mind at all. I would never think of her in that way.

Once school starts, once summer ends, I hope that people will side with her instead of siding with me. I can receive the bad end. I don't want her to go through hell because of me. I don't want any of the bad things to happen to her. It was my fault. She's innocent.. she would never ever try to do that.

I tried calling her again and again but she never returned or picked up any of my calls. I asked Kokoro if Misaki ever contacted her but she said she never did. I tried coming over to her place but she didn't want to talk to me, her mother won't let me explain my side too.

I screwed up. I don't even know who did that to me, who tried to sabotage my friendship with Misaki. I asked Minari if she had any idea but she was just as surprised as I am. I have no clue on who it is, who it could possibly be. This is annoying.

I've been very lonely, lifeless, confused, and immensely messed up. I haven't went out of my room because of the issues. The days keep on passing by with me just resting, crying, and wishing that I could change everything.

Feeling like I need someone to talk to, I called Rei. "Hey...." I start, taking a deep breath as I tried to calm down. "You've heard them already.. right?"

"I have.. I honestly don't know how to react to it, considering what had happened on that day.." I bite my hand to stifle my sobs.

"D-Do you think that I did that?" I hold onto the mattress, making my way up to my bed to lay down. "D-Do you trust me that I didn't do that?"

He let out a deep sigh and kept quiet for a while. "I know what I said.. but right now.. I'm really sorry.. but I don't." When I thought I have someone by my side.. "Take care of yourself. I'm ha--" I end the call and throw my phone to the wall, hearing it break and shatter.